We Are Not Human Beings Having a Spiritual Experience.
We are Spiritual Beings Having a Human Experience.
I have a quote somewhat like this on my piano. I tend to forget this in my everyday life. Only in times of "need" do I remember this.
Lately I haven't wanted to be here.
I said this to my friend Rhonda in the middle of Wal-mart a little while ago. The thought of it made tears come to my eyes. I don't know why I said it.
I found myself saying it again last night to Ron in the middle of eating my favorite sandwich at Subway. I got all teary eyed again.
What is up with me?
I couldn't talk to Ron so I wrote it out on a napkin.
Conversation went something like this.
'I don't want to be here?'
(he was thinking I didn't want to be at subway, but didn't understand the tears that streamed down my face. He also thought maybe I was referring to being in the Kearney Ward/area)
'I don't want to be here on earth!!!'
He kind of got teary eyed. "Why?"
'Because people are mean and stupid'
'Because we can't even sit down as a family and show respect and love for each other, like in F.H.E. last night (course it didn't help that the phone kept ringing...next time they are off. All FIVE of them, ha ha)
We had just spent Christmas week-end at his Folks place in hillbilly country. For those of you who don't know, ha ha. Indianola, Ne. Which is about 25 miles East of McCook. They live in an old Pig Farm house. The Huge metal type building if chucked full of STUFF...Cars, tires, junk, tools, more junk, the pig pen is full of mowers, and such. It's quite funny. Justice was out taking pictures of the Ranchero, Pacer, Fast Back Mustang, old pick-ups, and rust buckets. Makes Mater look brand new. Ha ha.
The house if full of "stuff" Pretty Stuff. The 4 freezers are full of Stuff.
Stuff Everywhere.
It became quite overwhelming to me.
"stuff" happened on Saturday Night. Lies were told, feelings were hurt. I wanted to Run and Hide and take my kids and shelter them from the "cold".
I took a time out, talked it over with my kids. A lesson needed to be taught here, and even tho the guilty parties didn't want to talk about it, it got resolved, at least on the surface. I'm sure it will be a long time before I "give" my children to that situation again.
My spirit felt trapped there. We are MILES from civilization, Ron goes off galivanting to the ends of the earth and I'm stuck in the Pig Farm. (I mean that a few different ways, not necessarily negatively)
I get home and I'm free. NOPE! I'm stuck again with people who don't want to learn new principles of the gospel, who don't see a need to, or have the attention spam of a 10 month old. (I'd say 3 year old but she was actually pretty good, crayons and paper and she can be still for 3 minutes.)
It was very disheartening.
I shut down.
I am trying to figure out what I CAN do to get out of this. I don't mean my body. That would be too easy. (I've tried that, UGH, Sigh, HA HA)
My true reflection time is in the shower. My all humility? I don't know. That is when I speak to God and God truly speaks to me. I shared my thoughts with him.
He Shared his with me.
"Shanon, you have been filling your body with Junk! Junk food, Junk on t.v. Junk Junk Junk, and so what are you getting out of it? Junk. Satan wants YOU! He needs you! I want you, I need you. Please....get a grip and start eating better!"
This made me reflect on what my vegetarian friend Benji told me YEARS ago. I was pregnant with Justice. He said, "When you fill your body full of sugar, (the refined stuff, not the real stuff like fruits and real juices) that makes your body become unbalanced. Satan knows that. Therefore he can enter your mind!"
Wow!!! Really?
Henceforth the major cravings. Satan wants me and knows that is how he can get to me. Breads can turn into sugars too? I crave bread and sweets.
New Years Eve....
New resolutions!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Christmas Day
Yesterday was a good day. I got up, got dressed and took Shai and Justice to Hunan's for lunch. Before we got to lunch I stopped by my friends Greenhouse. The Spirit drove me there, haha.
I knew a friend was "giftless" for Christmas and so I felt "impressed" to change that. I left the box for Stacy, but I also know Stacy is a giver too. I think that is why we are Not rich, we would rather give our services, ha ha. (I have tried Tupperware, Home Interiors, Jafra, Pampered Chef, its all the same, I give my sales away, ha ha)
I took my thoughts to Stacy and we went shopping. She wrapped and I got some money from my car. Her van hasn't been starting so I volunteered my van for delivery. That was fun. She had another to make around 1:00 but was still hoping her dh would show up. After lunch the impression to go back to the greenhouse drove me over there. I loaded up 30 poinsetta's (she is the local grower. There are not very many people who can grow Poinsetta's they have to go without light for a certain amount of time. That doesn't leave very many places.) and took them to the Prince Of Peace services.
It felt good to help. On the way home from our errands we stopped and delivered to my "giftless" friend. I love the spirit in her home. I wished the time permitted me to just bask there all the time. Once I am there I have to force myself to leave. Justice was in the van and we had to get home for the party at my house.
We got home and Justice and Shai and Ron helped me get the house cleaned up and the food prepared. It was fun working with each other. Our guests came around 6:00. We chatted and we ate til our bellies ached. I had an investigator of the church over and an inactive plus Jenn and Jenn, and the missionladies. Jenn had her beautiful children. I had fun. I hope they did too.
WE had chips and dips and crackers and cheese and meats and cookies and puppy chow and chex crunch, chocolate chips, peanuts, veggies, pop, water, bean dip, spinach dip (remind me to NEVER eat that again, it sucks coming out your nose). Too much food. Did you know Lofthouse cookies are made in Ogden Utah? Wow, they are good. Sweet! EEEWWWW EEE
Missionaries have a curfew so people were gone and out before 9:00. I took a long hot bath while the family cleaned up.
I stayed up and watched Bucket list a couple of times and bawled my eyes out. I just can't imagine. I still have visions of Shawn lying lifeless in that coffin with his hands black from serving others. What will my hands look like?
What is my Bucket List?
I want to love. I want to laugh. I want to teach others. I want to serve others. I want to travel. I want to be the best that I can be.
I'm a bear to live with when I have a headache, or my tooth, or my elbow. I can't imagine knowing I had 6 months to live and in pain. I saw my "ma" suffer through breast cancer. It took the very life out of her. All she could do was lay on the couch. That was my first testimony that I didn't have to be entertained. That was the first time My spirit spoke to someone else's. She apologized for not being able to do something for me. I said, Ma, its okay. Let's Just BE!
No words, lets just spiritually talk in silence.
what a great feeling.
Christmas today started at 9:00 am for me. I was up and watching the Christmas day parade waiting for Karrea and Adrienne to wake up. We finally got to presents at 10:15. (jonas brothers and Miley Cyrus, you know!)
It was a blast watching the excitement in Karrea. She got mostly movies and she got an art box with Crayons, glue and stickers
Shai got 50.00 from me, (daddy gave them 50.00 in their white elephant gifts) and a Teen magazine, beef jerky, gum, candy bars, and a jonas brothers blanket.
Justice got the same goodies from me, but Shai had Jd's name and she got him a transformer blanket.
Adrienne got the same goodies from me but Ron had her name and all she wanted was money so he handed her a 20. 00
He has been super sick since yesterday morning. He is burning up and very weak. No throwing up but sore throat and headache. He is NOT good. He stayed in our room last night while people were here.
Poor baby. I feel sad for him.
I got a present from Karrea. Bejeweled Twist. I love those games it helps my "reflexes" ha ha
Ron got me some tools and 100.00 I feel very blessed.
For Ron I gave him 60.00 and a scrapbook. He is going to scrapbook with me if its the last thing we do. H aha! he is way more artistic and creative than me, I need him to help me. H aha!
We have had a super day. Adrienne made supper. She fixed her ham she got from work, mashed taters and gravy and green beans. Yummo!
Its always better if I don't make it.
WE have been watching movies all day. Enjoying just us. The house is a mess, Justice's is doing dishes and my feet are kicked up. I love it! I may just like it!
I hope everyone has had a wonderful week. I pray that we can all keep the spirit of Christ in our everyday lives and not just at this time. I like to do that by listening to yldsr.com, and when I'm in the car I listen to MybridgeRadio. Its a christian radio station. 99.3, or 95.7 I love that spirit. I always hear what the Lord needs me to hear, without the vulgar of drinking, lady talk, or swear words. Its been a blessing.
I think God Gave me a Very Merry Christmas
I knew a friend was "giftless" for Christmas and so I felt "impressed" to change that. I left the box for Stacy, but I also know Stacy is a giver too. I think that is why we are Not rich, we would rather give our services, ha ha. (I have tried Tupperware, Home Interiors, Jafra, Pampered Chef, its all the same, I give my sales away, ha ha)
I took my thoughts to Stacy and we went shopping. She wrapped and I got some money from my car. Her van hasn't been starting so I volunteered my van for delivery. That was fun. She had another to make around 1:00 but was still hoping her dh would show up. After lunch the impression to go back to the greenhouse drove me over there. I loaded up 30 poinsetta's (she is the local grower. There are not very many people who can grow Poinsetta's they have to go without light for a certain amount of time. That doesn't leave very many places.) and took them to the Prince Of Peace services.
It felt good to help. On the way home from our errands we stopped and delivered to my "giftless" friend. I love the spirit in her home. I wished the time permitted me to just bask there all the time. Once I am there I have to force myself to leave. Justice was in the van and we had to get home for the party at my house.
We got home and Justice and Shai and Ron helped me get the house cleaned up and the food prepared. It was fun working with each other. Our guests came around 6:00. We chatted and we ate til our bellies ached. I had an investigator of the church over and an inactive plus Jenn and Jenn, and the missionladies. Jenn had her beautiful children. I had fun. I hope they did too.
WE had chips and dips and crackers and cheese and meats and cookies and puppy chow and chex crunch, chocolate chips, peanuts, veggies, pop, water, bean dip, spinach dip (remind me to NEVER eat that again, it sucks coming out your nose). Too much food. Did you know Lofthouse cookies are made in Ogden Utah? Wow, they are good. Sweet! EEEWWWW EEE
Missionaries have a curfew so people were gone and out before 9:00. I took a long hot bath while the family cleaned up.
I stayed up and watched Bucket list a couple of times and bawled my eyes out. I just can't imagine. I still have visions of Shawn lying lifeless in that coffin with his hands black from serving others. What will my hands look like?
What is my Bucket List?
I want to love. I want to laugh. I want to teach others. I want to serve others. I want to travel. I want to be the best that I can be.
I'm a bear to live with when I have a headache, or my tooth, or my elbow. I can't imagine knowing I had 6 months to live and in pain. I saw my "ma" suffer through breast cancer. It took the very life out of her. All she could do was lay on the couch. That was my first testimony that I didn't have to be entertained. That was the first time My spirit spoke to someone else's. She apologized for not being able to do something for me. I said, Ma, its okay. Let's Just BE!
No words, lets just spiritually talk in silence.
what a great feeling.
Christmas today started at 9:00 am for me. I was up and watching the Christmas day parade waiting for Karrea and Adrienne to wake up. We finally got to presents at 10:15. (jonas brothers and Miley Cyrus, you know!)
It was a blast watching the excitement in Karrea. She got mostly movies and she got an art box with Crayons, glue and stickers
Shai got 50.00 from me, (daddy gave them 50.00 in their white elephant gifts) and a Teen magazine, beef jerky, gum, candy bars, and a jonas brothers blanket.
Justice got the same goodies from me, but Shai had Jd's name and she got him a transformer blanket.
Adrienne got the same goodies from me but Ron had her name and all she wanted was money so he handed her a 20. 00
He has been super sick since yesterday morning. He is burning up and very weak. No throwing up but sore throat and headache. He is NOT good. He stayed in our room last night while people were here.
Poor baby. I feel sad for him.
I got a present from Karrea. Bejeweled Twist. I love those games it helps my "reflexes" ha ha
Ron got me some tools and 100.00 I feel very blessed.
For Ron I gave him 60.00 and a scrapbook. He is going to scrapbook with me if its the last thing we do. H aha! he is way more artistic and creative than me, I need him to help me. H aha!
We have had a super day. Adrienne made supper. She fixed her ham she got from work, mashed taters and gravy and green beans. Yummo!
Its always better if I don't make it.
WE have been watching movies all day. Enjoying just us. The house is a mess, Justice's is doing dishes and my feet are kicked up. I love it! I may just like it!
I hope everyone has had a wonderful week. I pray that we can all keep the spirit of Christ in our everyday lives and not just at this time. I like to do that by listening to yldsr.com, and when I'm in the car I listen to MybridgeRadio. Its a christian radio station. 99.3, or 95.7 I love that spirit. I always hear what the Lord needs me to hear, without the vulgar of drinking, lady talk, or swear words. Its been a blessing.
I think God Gave me a Very Merry Christmas
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Christmas Spirit
Sacrament yesterday was the Christmas program. There were beautiful songs (always beautiful if I'm not at the organ, ha ha) and the missionaries, Elder Bernards, and Elder Gwynn were the narrators. It was nice. Bishop Loveless spoke and also President Sleight.
They spoke of a broken heart and contrite spirit being a gift that we could give the Lord. We could also give our forgiveness for a gift. We all need to be forgiven of something, but we must all forgive others.
It was nice sitting there having no ill feelings towards ANY ONE. With my new findings with Ron, that was NICE. We even sat by each other in church. Brother Brown brought a chair in for Ron and we sat in the back Pew. (Beins were gone, ha ha).
That set the tone for the spirit in my heart and in my home. (you know, when momma ain't happy, no body is happy. haha)
Today I gave the kids allowance and we all went shopping. This year we picked names. Instead of getting little 5.00 gifts for everyone we set the price at 20.00. The kids also went through their stuff and are donating. The kids also went through their stuff and wrapped it for each other. We call it White Elephant. I think the kids really look forward to it.
We are giving money this year. We have been for the past 8 years or so.
We were going to go shopping in Grand Island or Hasting Friday but Ron's mom called today and they invited us over this weekend for Christmas.
We were invited over for Thanksgiving, which is the last time the family saw Shawn. We didn't go, my family actually came over to our house. The last time we got together it was Adrienne's Graduation in May.
The spirit of Christmas is different this year. Its a good thing. I feel very blessed. This is the year of the Matson Trials, but the blessings have abounded over the tribulation.
I pray that the Christmas Spirit, the spirit of Jesus is in your heart and in your mind. Let forgiveness fill your soul. We know the greatest Gift that we Receive is Eternal life. Do you know that Exaltation only comes to the faithful ones. Eternal life and exaltation are two different things. We all receive Eternal Life, but our actions determine if we receive exaltation. I guess what I'm saying is if you want to be forgiven of your debts, then you have to forgive your debtors. A lot easier said than done. TRUST ME, I know!!!!
Merry Christmas everyone!!!
They spoke of a broken heart and contrite spirit being a gift that we could give the Lord. We could also give our forgiveness for a gift. We all need to be forgiven of something, but we must all forgive others.
It was nice sitting there having no ill feelings towards ANY ONE. With my new findings with Ron, that was NICE. We even sat by each other in church. Brother Brown brought a chair in for Ron and we sat in the back Pew. (Beins were gone, ha ha).
That set the tone for the spirit in my heart and in my home. (you know, when momma ain't happy, no body is happy. haha)
Today I gave the kids allowance and we all went shopping. This year we picked names. Instead of getting little 5.00 gifts for everyone we set the price at 20.00. The kids also went through their stuff and are donating. The kids also went through their stuff and wrapped it for each other. We call it White Elephant. I think the kids really look forward to it.
We are giving money this year. We have been for the past 8 years or so.
We were going to go shopping in Grand Island or Hasting Friday but Ron's mom called today and they invited us over this weekend for Christmas.
We were invited over for Thanksgiving, which is the last time the family saw Shawn. We didn't go, my family actually came over to our house. The last time we got together it was Adrienne's Graduation in May.
The spirit of Christmas is different this year. Its a good thing. I feel very blessed. This is the year of the Matson Trials, but the blessings have abounded over the tribulation.
I pray that the Christmas Spirit, the spirit of Jesus is in your heart and in your mind. Let forgiveness fill your soul. We know the greatest Gift that we Receive is Eternal life. Do you know that Exaltation only comes to the faithful ones. Eternal life and exaltation are two different things. We all receive Eternal Life, but our actions determine if we receive exaltation. I guess what I'm saying is if you want to be forgiven of your debts, then you have to forgive your debtors. A lot easier said than done. TRUST ME, I know!!!!
Merry Christmas everyone!!!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Knowledge can be freeing
I had the privilege of getting together with my friend Rhonda on friday. I was cleaning Jay's house around 10:40 and I got done around 12:00. That meant I was running late to get to Subway.
I was hoping Rhonda didn't leave. I got to subway and she was no where around. The manager came to me and asked if I was missing someone. She hadn't seen Rhonda so she sat down and chatted with me.
I must look like a person you can talk to becuase people talk to me. It truly is amazing! Anyone who knows me, knows I'm a dork, but I will talk with anyone about almost anything. I feel like I have a lot of experiences that can help others and I'm not afraid to share. I'm an open book. Why go through trials and not learn and share?
Rhonda came in. We made our sandwiches (salad on a bun for me please!)
We talked, we smiled, we laughed, we cried. We sat "forever". Adrienne called me and she came over too. We hung out. The troubles of the week came through. I hated it. I hated burdening Rhonda with my thoughts and fears, and troubles. She shared her findings this week.
I hope she doesn't mind me saying but she has done some research on Asperger's Syndrome.
What she was telling me was describing my husband. The very person who has been totally frustrating me to no end.
I got home around 7 or so. Remember, we met around 12:30 ish at subway, ha ha!
We get together and I don't know how to shut up.
When I got home, I shared with Ron what I had learned. I got on the internet and looked up Asperger's. I tell you. It was freeing. The understanding that Ron and I received free me of criticism. I am no longer nagging Ron into Social stuff.
I asked Ron what I could do for him? He said he didn't know. I said, are you willing to have the desire to learn how to be socially acceptable? He said YES. That was the first step. I told him I would try really hard not to be snotty in my teaching process. We set up a code. If I see him being inappropriate I will say...RON...STOP. Then we will go and talk about what is happening. I may be misunderstanding what he is doing.
I feel like the Lord has blessed me with a friend who is willing to share her struggles and wisdom. I am grateful for a loving Heavenly Father that gives us the technology to learn and grow and become a better people.
I don't profess to understand everything about Asperger's. I have a little more than I did. What this really did was take the judgment away from my mind and my heart. Not knowing what Ron's "problem" was was driving me crazy. I feel a weight lifted. I have been praying for relief and understanding. God is an awesome God.
Rhonda and I were supposed to meet tuesday, but something came up. We set it up for friday. She found out her information on Thursday. It wasn't a coincidence. It was "destiny". ha ha!
I was hoping Rhonda didn't leave. I got to subway and she was no where around. The manager came to me and asked if I was missing someone. She hadn't seen Rhonda so she sat down and chatted with me.
I must look like a person you can talk to becuase people talk to me. It truly is amazing! Anyone who knows me, knows I'm a dork, but I will talk with anyone about almost anything. I feel like I have a lot of experiences that can help others and I'm not afraid to share. I'm an open book. Why go through trials and not learn and share?
Rhonda came in. We made our sandwiches (salad on a bun for me please!)
We talked, we smiled, we laughed, we cried. We sat "forever". Adrienne called me and she came over too. We hung out. The troubles of the week came through. I hated it. I hated burdening Rhonda with my thoughts and fears, and troubles. She shared her findings this week.
I hope she doesn't mind me saying but she has done some research on Asperger's Syndrome.
What she was telling me was describing my husband. The very person who has been totally frustrating me to no end.
I got home around 7 or so. Remember, we met around 12:30 ish at subway, ha ha!
We get together and I don't know how to shut up.
When I got home, I shared with Ron what I had learned. I got on the internet and looked up Asperger's. I tell you. It was freeing. The understanding that Ron and I received free me of criticism. I am no longer nagging Ron into Social stuff.
I asked Ron what I could do for him? He said he didn't know. I said, are you willing to have the desire to learn how to be socially acceptable? He said YES. That was the first step. I told him I would try really hard not to be snotty in my teaching process. We set up a code. If I see him being inappropriate I will say...RON...STOP. Then we will go and talk about what is happening. I may be misunderstanding what he is doing.
I feel like the Lord has blessed me with a friend who is willing to share her struggles and wisdom. I am grateful for a loving Heavenly Father that gives us the technology to learn and grow and become a better people.
I don't profess to understand everything about Asperger's. I have a little more than I did. What this really did was take the judgment away from my mind and my heart. Not knowing what Ron's "problem" was was driving me crazy. I feel a weight lifted. I have been praying for relief and understanding. God is an awesome God.
Rhonda and I were supposed to meet tuesday, but something came up. We set it up for friday. She found out her information on Thursday. It wasn't a coincidence. It was "destiny". ha ha!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Reflections of Christ
http://deseretbook.com/video/embed/5
I wasn't in a good place yesterday.
I had some major sadness because of the Visual I had from Shawn's Funeral.
I felt guilty for not helping Ron in Hastings. I haven't been working out, I'm tired, sad, and its FREEZING out. I haven't been eating well. I've been filling up (feeling up) with junk. Mostly breads. Must be my comfort food.
Why would peanut butter and jello on soft bread comfort me? All it does is add a big bottom. Ha ha.
Anyway.
2 surprises yesterday. One of the sweet sister that I visit teach (through letters) came by and dropped off a present. I wanted to just start bawling, but I held it in. I felt so much love. I have been writing to her for years now. She writes me back. She used to be a Relief Society president, and do all kinds of service in the church but she has no place for the "church" or its "people" HOW SAD!!! I love her, I need her. I'm selfish, I want her there for me. PLEASE COME!!!
I was happy I was home to feel of her spirit for a few bried moments. I invited her in but she said she had an appointment to get to.
I was cleaning out my inbox in my Yahoo account, rereading stuff from Liz, and Faline, and Charlie and I came across this video that Charlie sent me from Deseret Book Video. I have played this video about 50 times. Karrea loves it, you should see the sadness she gets when she see's Jesus' hands. I got the NAIL off the tree I got from my HT (he stopped Ron in the hall yesterday and gave a loaf of bread with the NAIL poem) I showed how the "naughty guys" put Jesus on the Cross.
Tears flowing. She said, Mommy, that wasn't very nice! I know Sweetie!
This video and Eileen Hovie coming to see me got me OUT of the funk. Plus the pressure to perform for the missionaries when they had a last minute dinner appointment at our house. I laughed and felt a weight lifted.
I really wished I could feel this LIGHT every day. I usually do. But the pressure, the visions of sadness, and the weight of LIFE really gets me sometimes.
Hilary Weeks has a cute video on Deseret Video too, Mom's list. That is so my day. And many of yours too. If you need a cute pick me up. Visit it. I just clicked on all videos but if you don't want to watch just type in Hilary Weeks. I met her at Time out for Women (how did I get this italics? ) Her spirit is as large as her voice. She is so cute.
I hope the LINK I posted works, if not just look up deseretbook.com/tv/view/
“Each of us is an innkeeper, who decides if there is room for Jesus.” Neal A.
If you make room, does that mean you have to do like he does? YES!
Today on the Bridge Radio they are advertising to drive through and pay for someone else's lunch. I really want to do that. I have always wanted to have enough money to do that. I'll see what I can do tonight.
I did take some baby stuff over to my friends new consignment shop. I hope she is successful. I was there and I brought in the little rocking horse and the lady who was at the checkout says she has been looking everywhere for one like that. 5.00. Sold. I LOVE THAT!!!!
I got to bless someone's life, and I got 5.00. YAY!!!
So....Spread the kindness! Even if its a smile!
God is GOOD
I wasn't in a good place yesterday.
I had some major sadness because of the Visual I had from Shawn's Funeral.
I felt guilty for not helping Ron in Hastings. I haven't been working out, I'm tired, sad, and its FREEZING out. I haven't been eating well. I've been filling up (feeling up) with junk. Mostly breads. Must be my comfort food.
Why would peanut butter and jello on soft bread comfort me? All it does is add a big bottom. Ha ha.
Anyway.
2 surprises yesterday. One of the sweet sister that I visit teach (through letters) came by and dropped off a present. I wanted to just start bawling, but I held it in. I felt so much love. I have been writing to her for years now. She writes me back. She used to be a Relief Society president, and do all kinds of service in the church but she has no place for the "church" or its "people" HOW SAD!!! I love her, I need her. I'm selfish, I want her there for me. PLEASE COME!!!
I was happy I was home to feel of her spirit for a few bried moments. I invited her in but she said she had an appointment to get to.
I was cleaning out my inbox in my Yahoo account, rereading stuff from Liz, and Faline, and Charlie and I came across this video that Charlie sent me from Deseret Book Video. I have played this video about 50 times. Karrea loves it, you should see the sadness she gets when she see's Jesus' hands. I got the NAIL off the tree I got from my HT (he stopped Ron in the hall yesterday and gave a loaf of bread with the NAIL poem) I showed how the "naughty guys" put Jesus on the Cross.
Tears flowing. She said, Mommy, that wasn't very nice! I know Sweetie!
This video and Eileen Hovie coming to see me got me OUT of the funk. Plus the pressure to perform for the missionaries when they had a last minute dinner appointment at our house. I laughed and felt a weight lifted.
I really wished I could feel this LIGHT every day. I usually do. But the pressure, the visions of sadness, and the weight of LIFE really gets me sometimes.
Hilary Weeks has a cute video on Deseret Video too, Mom's list. That is so my day. And many of yours too. If you need a cute pick me up. Visit it. I just clicked on all videos but if you don't want to watch just type in Hilary Weeks. I met her at Time out for Women (how did I get this italics? ) Her spirit is as large as her voice. She is so cute.
I hope the LINK I posted works, if not just look up deseretbook.com/tv/view/
“Each of us is an innkeeper, who decides if there is room for Jesus.” Neal A.
If you make room, does that mean you have to do like he does? YES!
Today on the Bridge Radio they are advertising to drive through and pay for someone else's lunch. I really want to do that. I have always wanted to have enough money to do that. I'll see what I can do tonight.
I did take some baby stuff over to my friends new consignment shop. I hope she is successful. I was there and I brought in the little rocking horse and the lady who was at the checkout says she has been looking everywhere for one like that. 5.00. Sold. I LOVE THAT!!!!
I got to bless someone's life, and I got 5.00. YAY!!!
So....Spread the kindness! Even if its a smile!
God is GOOD
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Thank You Loretta
I was reading Loretta's blog tonight, trying to see if I could get a snazzy tattoo like she has, ha ha! and I noticed she mentioned my blog.
How Sweet!
so In honor of that sweetness, I think I need to fill out the questions,.
List 5 things I loves.
Name 5 people I would pass the award to.
Give Solicited Love to the person who nominated her.
Here goes....
I love to EAT!! I love food, I love bread, I love to feel full, I love to eat veggies, I love sweets.
I love to SERVE the Lord. My most favorite callings have been the Stake Camp Director, the Stake YW Secretary, the Stake Primary Secretary, now first counselor, and Ward Young Womens first Counselor. I LOVE IT
I love my Children and Husband. Ron tries. Adrienne is a great cook. Shai is a great go getter. Justice is a lover. Karrea is a hoot. She has me laughing when I should be crying.
I love to Visit Teach. I truly have been blessed to have great companions and GREAT GREAT sisters (and I do mean sisters) that I GET to visit and be a part of their lives. I still have great friendships with those who have moved on...on to other VT. I don't do 20 minutes. I don't know how. I go by the spirit and sometimes that spirit says 2:00 AM (when I got there around 7:00, haha). Sometimes I go twice a month. Sometimes I come bearing gifts. I just go by the spirit of who needs what, and usually I NEED THEM. (more than they need me)
I love to clean. I'm not a freak. But I find myself cleaning all the time. I have a janitorial service that I run on the side. Next to helping Ron with Heavens best carpet cleaning and my daycare. I find myself vacuuming people's cobwebs when the edger should be on the floor, ha ha. I love the smell and look and feel of CLEAN
Whom would I nominate for Blogs?
1. Melinda Hoover
2. Rhonda Kearney
3. Bonnie Halliday
4. GRAMMEE - LJ
5. Jaydee Dewitt
I'm assuming we can't nominate the person who nominated us. Can I put more than 5? lol
if so.. honorable mentions.
Steff from OKIE
Tauna if she is still blogging, anyone know?
Desiree Menjiness...by the way GREAT PHOTOS
Loretta has been my cyber friend for a few years now. I have seen her life turn from a stay at home, to a work at school and she still loves life and enjoys serving her friends and family. I have "seen" her weep and shared her tears. (as of todays announcement too). I have spiritually loved Loretta with all that I have and respect all that she is, all that she shares, and I feel of her strength and use that to help me along my journey.
I love you Loretta. Prayers for you and your family!!!!!
God Bless
How Sweet!
so In honor of that sweetness, I think I need to fill out the questions,.
List 5 things I loves.
Name 5 people I would pass the award to.
Give Solicited Love to the person who nominated her.
Here goes....
I love to EAT!! I love food, I love bread, I love to feel full, I love to eat veggies, I love sweets.
I love to SERVE the Lord. My most favorite callings have been the Stake Camp Director, the Stake YW Secretary, the Stake Primary Secretary, now first counselor, and Ward Young Womens first Counselor. I LOVE IT
I love my Children and Husband. Ron tries. Adrienne is a great cook. Shai is a great go getter. Justice is a lover. Karrea is a hoot. She has me laughing when I should be crying.
I love to Visit Teach. I truly have been blessed to have great companions and GREAT GREAT sisters (and I do mean sisters) that I GET to visit and be a part of their lives. I still have great friendships with those who have moved on...on to other VT. I don't do 20 minutes. I don't know how. I go by the spirit and sometimes that spirit says 2:00 AM (when I got there around 7:00, haha). Sometimes I go twice a month. Sometimes I come bearing gifts. I just go by the spirit of who needs what, and usually I NEED THEM. (more than they need me)
I love to clean. I'm not a freak. But I find myself cleaning all the time. I have a janitorial service that I run on the side. Next to helping Ron with Heavens best carpet cleaning and my daycare. I find myself vacuuming people's cobwebs when the edger should be on the floor, ha ha. I love the smell and look and feel of CLEAN
Whom would I nominate for Blogs?
1. Melinda Hoover
2. Rhonda Kearney
3. Bonnie Halliday
4. GRAMMEE - LJ
5. Jaydee Dewitt
I'm assuming we can't nominate the person who nominated us. Can I put more than 5? lol
if so.. honorable mentions.
Steff from OKIE
Tauna if she is still blogging, anyone know?
Desiree Menjiness...by the way GREAT PHOTOS
Loretta has been my cyber friend for a few years now. I have seen her life turn from a stay at home, to a work at school and she still loves life and enjoys serving her friends and family. I have "seen" her weep and shared her tears. (as of todays announcement too). I have spiritually loved Loretta with all that I have and respect all that she is, all that she shares, and I feel of her strength and use that to help me along my journey.
I love you Loretta. Prayers for you and your family!!!!!
God Bless
I'm official
I'm officially a bad wife and mother
1 CORINTHIANS 13 CHRISTMAS VERSION
If I decorate my house perfectly with plaid bows, strands of twinkling lights and shiny balls, but do not show love to my family, I’m just another decorator.
If I slave away in the kitchen, baking dozens of Christmas cookies, preparing gourmet meals and arranging a beautifully adorned table at mealtime, but do not show love to my family, I’m just another cook.
If I work at the soup kitchen, carol in the nursing home, and give all thatI have to charity, but do not show love to my family, it profits me nothing.
If I trim the spruce with shimmering angels and crocheted snowflakes, attend a myriad of holiday parties and sing in the choir’s cantata, but do not focus on Christ, I have missed the point.
Love stops the cooking to hug the child.
Love sets aside decorating to kiss the husband.
Love is kind, though harried and tired.
Love doesn’t envy another’s home that has coordinated Christmas china and table linens.
Love doesn’t yell at the kids to get out of the way, but is thankful they are there to be in the way.
Love doesn’t give only to those who are able to give in return but rejoices in giving to those who can’t.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails.
Video games will break, pearl necklaces will be lost, golf clubs will rust.
But giving the gift of love will endure.
Merry Christmas!–
Author Unknown
1 CORINTHIANS 13 CHRISTMAS VERSION
If I decorate my house perfectly with plaid bows, strands of twinkling lights and shiny balls, but do not show love to my family, I’m just another decorator.
If I slave away in the kitchen, baking dozens of Christmas cookies, preparing gourmet meals and arranging a beautifully adorned table at mealtime, but do not show love to my family, I’m just another cook.
If I work at the soup kitchen, carol in the nursing home, and give all thatI have to charity, but do not show love to my family, it profits me nothing.
If I trim the spruce with shimmering angels and crocheted snowflakes, attend a myriad of holiday parties and sing in the choir’s cantata, but do not focus on Christ, I have missed the point.
Love stops the cooking to hug the child.
Love sets aside decorating to kiss the husband.
Love is kind, though harried and tired.
Love doesn’t envy another’s home that has coordinated Christmas china and table linens.
Love doesn’t yell at the kids to get out of the way, but is thankful they are there to be in the way.
Love doesn’t give only to those who are able to give in return but rejoices in giving to those who can’t.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails.
Video games will break, pearl necklaces will be lost, golf clubs will rust.
But giving the gift of love will endure.
Merry Christmas!–
Author Unknown
Satan's tools
Even after I posted Reflections of Love I still found myself struggling with my relationship with Ron. I wished I wasn't a thinker. I wished I was more like him and just go through life, lolli-gagging. Ha ha.
Life just really seems smooth for Ron. He is fun with the kids. He is more of a kid himself. I sometimes feel more like his mother than a wife, but as I look around, I think that is just a lot of some men's journey. (as I just caught him yanking a string with a pair of playdough scissors on the end from the ceiling fan. 3 children laughing and watching and I bet 2.00 that they try it later this day, ugh)
Sunday we came home from Wray. We talked until about 2:00 am. I wanted to really resolve these feelings before something tragic could happen to our family. You know, the NO REGRETS statement at the funeral got me thinking. Shawn lives his life "wide open".
I think I found the source that satan has been using in my thought process. I dug deep down to remember when I found myself OFFENDED. I remembered. I thought we talked about it, but It was still pretty deep. The feelings I had about what Ron did to me felt like me getting punched in the stomach again. The same feelings I had when Debbie Wolfe quit speaking to me.
(that is another life lesson)
So today, even tho the sun isn't quite shining, and its so cold out. I'm starting to warm up to this new found feeling of love and trust for Ron.
As of now, Satans tool is put away in his shed and not mine. I have HOPE for this relationship.
"Hope is one leg of a three-legged stool, together with faith and charity. These three stabilize our lives regardless of the rough or uneven surfaces we might encounter at the time... Hope in our Heavenly Father’s merciful plan of happiness leads to peace, mercy, rejoicing, and gladness. The hope of salvation is like a protective helmet; it is the foundation of our faith and an anchor to our souls." --Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "The Infinite Power of Hope", Ensign, Nov 2008, 21–24
Romans 15:4
Cast Thy Burden upon the Lord, Hymn #110
Life just really seems smooth for Ron. He is fun with the kids. He is more of a kid himself. I sometimes feel more like his mother than a wife, but as I look around, I think that is just a lot of some men's journey. (as I just caught him yanking a string with a pair of playdough scissors on the end from the ceiling fan. 3 children laughing and watching and I bet 2.00 that they try it later this day, ugh)
Sunday we came home from Wray. We talked until about 2:00 am. I wanted to really resolve these feelings before something tragic could happen to our family. You know, the NO REGRETS statement at the funeral got me thinking. Shawn lives his life "wide open".
I think I found the source that satan has been using in my thought process. I dug deep down to remember when I found myself OFFENDED. I remembered. I thought we talked about it, but It was still pretty deep. The feelings I had about what Ron did to me felt like me getting punched in the stomach again. The same feelings I had when Debbie Wolfe quit speaking to me.
(that is another life lesson)
So today, even tho the sun isn't quite shining, and its so cold out. I'm starting to warm up to this new found feeling of love and trust for Ron.
As of now, Satans tool is put away in his shed and not mine. I have HOPE for this relationship.
"Hope is one leg of a three-legged stool, together with faith and charity. These three stabilize our lives regardless of the rough or uneven surfaces we might encounter at the time... Hope in our Heavenly Father’s merciful plan of happiness leads to peace, mercy, rejoicing, and gladness. The hope of salvation is like a protective helmet; it is the foundation of our faith and an anchor to our souls." --Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "The Infinite Power of Hope", Ensign, Nov 2008, 21–24
Romans 15:4
Cast Thy Burden upon the Lord, Hymn #110
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Reflection of Love
The past few weeks it has come to my attention that I have become Complacent in my marriage.
I'm not sure why I have felt this way. Each day I have wondered, worried, tried to resolve these feelings.
How did I know I had a problem?
1. I was relating to a lot of ladies who feel frustrated in their marriage.
2. I have contemplated divorce a few times over the years.
3. I am jealous that he gets to come and go as he pleases now that he owns his own business.
5. I am not satisfied to have him sitting in front of the T.V and him taking a nap while I am running almost everything in the house.
6. I have a list, shouldn't he have a list to do.
7. I buy all the groceries, and everyone eats what they may.
I think the biggest part is the Jealousy. If I look over this list...it all boils down to being Jealous. That is NOT a gift of the spirit. It actually removes any "gift" I may feel.
I know this is one of Satan's tools. I really want to remove it.
Tuesday Ron gets a phone call from his brother Bob. Bob just got a phone call from his mom saying that Shawn Henry's dad just found Shawn dead in his pickup. No other details.
Thoughts tend to run through your mind, rapidly.
Shawn Henry came into Kim Matson's life at the age of 15. Gave birth to their first son, Drew Michael January of 1991. Gave birth to their second son Drake July 1992. Shawn left their little family shortly after. Kim got back together with Mark Hinz and they had a baby girl named Shaydee Lynn, I'm not exactly sure when she was born. Mark helped raise these two boys and little girl. Even after Kim and Marks relationship died, Mark still helped out. Kim and Shawn hooked back up a few years ago and their son Dale was born.
In the mean time Drew is faced with Leukemia, and struggled for years. The Make a Wish foundation granted Drews wish. "I want my mom and dad to get married" While in Florida at Disney Land the two were finally married.
About 3 years ago Mark left this life in a truck accident. Leaving Shaydee, Drew and Drake in sadness.
Life has been trying for Kim and her little family. Not having the truth of the gospel in their lives but still believing in God and His plans.
Kim found out that Drake has fathered a baby girl at the age of 15. Leaving her a grandma at the age of 34. I told Kim...You always did have to do it young. She said, Ya, so I can be OLD early.
Reflection time.
I have the gospel in my life. How dare I take things for granted, such as my husband.
Truth is...
1. God put us together. We prayed to know if we were to marry each other 20 years ago,
2. He loves children. He thinks he's more patient then I, but the test of time says I am more patient, ha ha
3. He plays with the kids, and he takes care of the daycare children that God has placed in our home. Not willingly all the time, but still does it.
4. Ron is very talented with his hands. I mean that in more ways then one, ha ha. He has remodeled this home very nicely. Even roofed our home with very limited knowledge and resources. He put a lot of time and knee bending into it.
5. Ron makes great wildlife noises. It has taken me 20 years to understand why he does it. He is sad that he doesn't have musical talent and he feels this is his talent and in the mean time he entertains the little ones and bugs the heck out of me.
6. Ron does his home teaching IF his companion is consistent and persistent.
7. Ron goes to church with us, even though he can't sit in the pew's.
8. Ron will fulfill his calling if he is TAUGHT the way.
9. Ron has always had a job.
10. Ron has always provided shelter for his family.
11. Ron has always been kind to everyone outside of the home
12. Ron has always done what he could to help people out.
13. Ron is very cute, ha ha]
14. Ron is a man of honor....not always, but has learned through priesthood powers
15. Ron is a real man.
There are things that bug me...but I bug him too.
I can live with these quirks.
I will try not to be complacent.
Shawn will be missed. I want Ron to know that he would be missed too.
I want to learn how to show that love and appreciation always.
"In God’s eternal plan, salvation is an individual matter; exaltation is a family matter."
--Russell M. Nelson, "Salvation and Exaltation", Ensign, May 2008, 7–10
Alma 12:24.
Families Can Be Together Forever, Hymn #300
"The message of this season that is applicable throughout the year lies not in the receiving of earthly presents and treasures but in the forsaking of selfishness and greed and in going forward, seeking and enjoying the gifts of the Spirit, which Paul said are 'love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law." --James E. Faust, "A Christmas with No Presents", Ensign, Dec. 2001, 6
Gal. 5:22–23
I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day, Hymn #214
I'm not sure why I have felt this way. Each day I have wondered, worried, tried to resolve these feelings.
How did I know I had a problem?
1. I was relating to a lot of ladies who feel frustrated in their marriage.
2. I have contemplated divorce a few times over the years.
3. I am jealous that he gets to come and go as he pleases now that he owns his own business.
5. I am not satisfied to have him sitting in front of the T.V and him taking a nap while I am running almost everything in the house.
6. I have a list, shouldn't he have a list to do.
7. I buy all the groceries, and everyone eats what they may.
I think the biggest part is the Jealousy. If I look over this list...it all boils down to being Jealous. That is NOT a gift of the spirit. It actually removes any "gift" I may feel.
I know this is one of Satan's tools. I really want to remove it.
Tuesday Ron gets a phone call from his brother Bob. Bob just got a phone call from his mom saying that Shawn Henry's dad just found Shawn dead in his pickup. No other details.
Thoughts tend to run through your mind, rapidly.
Shawn Henry came into Kim Matson's life at the age of 15. Gave birth to their first son, Drew Michael January of 1991. Gave birth to their second son Drake July 1992. Shawn left their little family shortly after. Kim got back together with Mark Hinz and they had a baby girl named Shaydee Lynn, I'm not exactly sure when she was born. Mark helped raise these two boys and little girl. Even after Kim and Marks relationship died, Mark still helped out. Kim and Shawn hooked back up a few years ago and their son Dale was born.
In the mean time Drew is faced with Leukemia, and struggled for years. The Make a Wish foundation granted Drews wish. "I want my mom and dad to get married" While in Florida at Disney Land the two were finally married.
About 3 years ago Mark left this life in a truck accident. Leaving Shaydee, Drew and Drake in sadness.
Life has been trying for Kim and her little family. Not having the truth of the gospel in their lives but still believing in God and His plans.
Kim found out that Drake has fathered a baby girl at the age of 15. Leaving her a grandma at the age of 34. I told Kim...You always did have to do it young. She said, Ya, so I can be OLD early.
Reflection time.
I have the gospel in my life. How dare I take things for granted, such as my husband.
Truth is...
1. God put us together. We prayed to know if we were to marry each other 20 years ago,
2. He loves children. He thinks he's more patient then I, but the test of time says I am more patient, ha ha
3. He plays with the kids, and he takes care of the daycare children that God has placed in our home. Not willingly all the time, but still does it.
4. Ron is very talented with his hands. I mean that in more ways then one, ha ha. He has remodeled this home very nicely. Even roofed our home with very limited knowledge and resources. He put a lot of time and knee bending into it.
5. Ron makes great wildlife noises. It has taken me 20 years to understand why he does it. He is sad that he doesn't have musical talent and he feels this is his talent and in the mean time he entertains the little ones and bugs the heck out of me.
6. Ron does his home teaching IF his companion is consistent and persistent.
7. Ron goes to church with us, even though he can't sit in the pew's.
8. Ron will fulfill his calling if he is TAUGHT the way.
9. Ron has always had a job.
10. Ron has always provided shelter for his family.
11. Ron has always been kind to everyone outside of the home
12. Ron has always done what he could to help people out.
13. Ron is very cute, ha ha]
14. Ron is a man of honor....not always, but has learned through priesthood powers
15. Ron is a real man.
There are things that bug me...but I bug him too.
I can live with these quirks.
I will try not to be complacent.
Shawn will be missed. I want Ron to know that he would be missed too.
I want to learn how to show that love and appreciation always.
"In God’s eternal plan, salvation is an individual matter; exaltation is a family matter."
--Russell M. Nelson, "Salvation and Exaltation", Ensign, May 2008, 7–10
Alma 12:24.
Families Can Be Together Forever, Hymn #300
"The message of this season that is applicable throughout the year lies not in the receiving of earthly presents and treasures but in the forsaking of selfishness and greed and in going forward, seeking and enjoying the gifts of the Spirit, which Paul said are 'love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law." --James E. Faust, "A Christmas with No Presents", Ensign, Dec. 2001, 6
Gal. 5:22–23
I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day, Hymn #214
Monday, December 1, 2008
"May we be found among those who give our thanks to our Heavenly Father. If ingratitude be numbered among the serious sins, then gratitude takes its place among the noblest of virtues. Despite the changes which come into our lives and with gratitude in our hearts, may we fill our days—as much as we can—with those things which matter most. May we cherish those we hold dear and express our love to them in word and in deed."
--Thomas S. Monson, "Finding Joy in the Journey", Ensign, Nov 2008, 84–87
D&C 59:21.Come, Ye Thankful People Come, Hymn #94
I’ve had a few minutes to reflect on things that I have been blessed with this past week.
I had a blast on Thanksgiving. Mom and dad showed up around 11:00. We didn’t have to rush around and do things, we were relaxed. It was nice. Russ and Shell and Lucas showed up next. I guess Roger got called off on a emergency call so lunch was going to be a little later. Guess what? It was okay. Turkey was done at 11:00 but it stayed delish. Taters were peeled by dad and I. We snacked on reindeer poop, chips and salsa, and a fruit tray that Russ and Shell brought.
The food seemed so easy this year. Mom and dad bought pies at Costco. They were huge and delicious! I have never had such a great pumpkin pie. (I am sheltered though). The night before I made strawberry fluff (coo-lwhip, frozen strawberries (thawed)mashed and then I added vanilla fat free pudding, and marshmellows). We had corn, cheesy beans, potatoes, gravy (from sam’s club Tone’s), rolls. I bought frozen ones but forgot to raise them so Ron bought some at the store. (I don’t know what his deal is, but Christmas Eve and Thanksgiving day he has to go to the store. Which leaves him not helping.!! UGH) He bought pop because dad only drinks diet Dr. Pepper and we had diet dew and dew and coke. I know. We are sinners. But it is my Zoloft. I find myself really low and so I drink a bit of pop and I’m off and running again. We had a 20 pound turkey that I bought about a month ago at 88 cents a pound, good thing I got it. They went up to 1.08 a week before. (Friday we went to Sams and picked one up for .58 so I have one for food storage now). My brother Roger brought fruit salad. It was good. Mom made her homemade stuffing the night before with the turkey giblets, apple, celery, onion. It was pretty good. That was it. The relish tray was out and empty by the time lunch was ready. Guess what? It was okay. 6 cans of olives flew by! Ha ha
For once Thanksgiving wasn’t about the food for me. It was about the people! I have always wondered what people meant by that. (weight watcher ladies). I ate 2 pieces of pie, but I didn’t pig out. I felt very blessed to have my new home and family to enjoy it and not “FREAK” out and worry. I must be getting old.
After lunch we sat around and talked. We enjoyed the funny stories. Why do we always tell stories when we were little? Nobody really talks about their lives today. We did. We talked about the business. I learned about Shells work. Roger shared a few things about his work. Julie said she loves her job. Mom and dad didn’t share too much. It was fun. We played dice a round and then we showed them how to play Old Mare The Lying game. A HOOT. Roger couldn’t do it. He would just minus a point instead of lie to mom. It was hilarious!! We had to change directions and mom lied to Roger. It was fun. Dad sat in front of the t.v. most of the time, but that was good. He needed to circulate his feet. Diabetes is setting in. Shai played on the computer most of the night. Justice entertained James and Lucas. They played games all day. Lucas had a broken arm, there wasn’t much else they could do. It was a beautiful day to play catch, but inside was the plan they went with. Lucas brought some robots and played for a little bit and then came out of his shell when James came. They are more the same age. Actually, Justice will be 11 next week, James just turned 9 (or 10?) and Lucas will be 9 next February.
It was fun. I could feel the blessings of it all. We missed Lyle. Michael, his son came for a couple hours to visit, he sat in the pictures for Lyle. I can’t believe he is 21. He is such a handsome man. I worried, he was such a terror when he was younger. Wow. No one could stand the little guy. He was mean to his mom and took scissors to my car (which mom and dad bought from Ron and I). Mom says he was ADD. We all thought he was just a brat. Haha. It’s good seeing him be successful. I would love to see him a member of the church. That is the only thing he is missing.
Roger Called and said he enjoyed himself. Mom and Dad commented that they had a blast. They told me that a few times actually. I just think Satan has his ways of keeping the family together and contention has always been number one where we are concerned.
The blessings of Thanksgiving: I am grateful for all of my blessings. My children are great, talented and funny. My husband is cute and funny. My parents are generous and they love my husband more than me, ha ha. My brother Russell is so hilarious. Roger was actually funny too. He looks healthy and he’s doing good. My sister in laws are very sweet, very helpful, and genuine. It’s nice. I hope we can get together again. Who knew that this year would be the year of so many wonderful changes. We could’ve have really cursed God, but we didn’t. We saw His hand in Everything. We saw miracles almost everyday. I feel very blessed, and loved by a God that knows me and my little family.
--Thomas S. Monson, "Finding Joy in the Journey", Ensign, Nov 2008, 84–87
D&C 59:21.Come, Ye Thankful People Come, Hymn #94
I’ve had a few minutes to reflect on things that I have been blessed with this past week.
I had a blast on Thanksgiving. Mom and dad showed up around 11:00. We didn’t have to rush around and do things, we were relaxed. It was nice. Russ and Shell and Lucas showed up next. I guess Roger got called off on a emergency call so lunch was going to be a little later. Guess what? It was okay. Turkey was done at 11:00 but it stayed delish. Taters were peeled by dad and I. We snacked on reindeer poop, chips and salsa, and a fruit tray that Russ and Shell brought.
The food seemed so easy this year. Mom and dad bought pies at Costco. They were huge and delicious! I have never had such a great pumpkin pie. (I am sheltered though). The night before I made strawberry fluff (coo-lwhip, frozen strawberries (thawed)mashed and then I added vanilla fat free pudding, and marshmellows). We had corn, cheesy beans, potatoes, gravy (from sam’s club Tone’s), rolls. I bought frozen ones but forgot to raise them so Ron bought some at the store. (I don’t know what his deal is, but Christmas Eve and Thanksgiving day he has to go to the store. Which leaves him not helping.!! UGH) He bought pop because dad only drinks diet Dr. Pepper and we had diet dew and dew and coke. I know. We are sinners. But it is my Zoloft. I find myself really low and so I drink a bit of pop and I’m off and running again. We had a 20 pound turkey that I bought about a month ago at 88 cents a pound, good thing I got it. They went up to 1.08 a week before. (Friday we went to Sams and picked one up for .58 so I have one for food storage now). My brother Roger brought fruit salad. It was good. Mom made her homemade stuffing the night before with the turkey giblets, apple, celery, onion. It was pretty good. That was it. The relish tray was out and empty by the time lunch was ready. Guess what? It was okay. 6 cans of olives flew by! Ha ha
For once Thanksgiving wasn’t about the food for me. It was about the people! I have always wondered what people meant by that. (weight watcher ladies). I ate 2 pieces of pie, but I didn’t pig out. I felt very blessed to have my new home and family to enjoy it and not “FREAK” out and worry. I must be getting old.
After lunch we sat around and talked. We enjoyed the funny stories. Why do we always tell stories when we were little? Nobody really talks about their lives today. We did. We talked about the business. I learned about Shells work. Roger shared a few things about his work. Julie said she loves her job. Mom and dad didn’t share too much. It was fun. We played dice a round and then we showed them how to play Old Mare The Lying game. A HOOT. Roger couldn’t do it. He would just minus a point instead of lie to mom. It was hilarious!! We had to change directions and mom lied to Roger. It was fun. Dad sat in front of the t.v. most of the time, but that was good. He needed to circulate his feet. Diabetes is setting in. Shai played on the computer most of the night. Justice entertained James and Lucas. They played games all day. Lucas had a broken arm, there wasn’t much else they could do. It was a beautiful day to play catch, but inside was the plan they went with. Lucas brought some robots and played for a little bit and then came out of his shell when James came. They are more the same age. Actually, Justice will be 11 next week, James just turned 9 (or 10?) and Lucas will be 9 next February.
It was fun. I could feel the blessings of it all. We missed Lyle. Michael, his son came for a couple hours to visit, he sat in the pictures for Lyle. I can’t believe he is 21. He is such a handsome man. I worried, he was such a terror when he was younger. Wow. No one could stand the little guy. He was mean to his mom and took scissors to my car (which mom and dad bought from Ron and I). Mom says he was ADD. We all thought he was just a brat. Haha. It’s good seeing him be successful. I would love to see him a member of the church. That is the only thing he is missing.
Roger Called and said he enjoyed himself. Mom and Dad commented that they had a blast. They told me that a few times actually. I just think Satan has his ways of keeping the family together and contention has always been number one where we are concerned.
The blessings of Thanksgiving: I am grateful for all of my blessings. My children are great, talented and funny. My husband is cute and funny. My parents are generous and they love my husband more than me, ha ha. My brother Russell is so hilarious. Roger was actually funny too. He looks healthy and he’s doing good. My sister in laws are very sweet, very helpful, and genuine. It’s nice. I hope we can get together again. Who knew that this year would be the year of so many wonderful changes. We could’ve have really cursed God, but we didn’t. We saw His hand in Everything. We saw miracles almost everyday. I feel very blessed, and loved by a God that knows me and my little family.
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