First off, as I was typing this it was translating into hindu. I'm such a dork.
Start with number
1. I'm grateful that I knew how to disable the hindu translation.
2. I'm grateful that Ron stood in line for almost an hour to get me this laptop for Christmas
3. I'm grateful that People around USA have wireless for me to tap into.
4. I'm grateful for: R-com, my wireless company who finally built the tower and completed me
5. I'm grateful for Adrienne who stays home and watches the kids while I help Ron.
6. I'm grateful Ron needs me
7. I'm grateful that when Karrea was sad today, I told her grandma and grandpa were coming and that made her happy. She wanted to sit on the porch and wait for them.
8. I'm grateful for Cell phones. Called mom and told her Karrea is waiting for her.
9. I'm grateful for Solvent that gets gum out of carpet.
10. I'm grateful for fabric protector that helps keep things clean (used to think it was a scam)
11. I'm grateful that Shai does her seminary
12. I'm grateful that Justice cleans up after his baby sister, even though he hates it.
13. I'm grateful for my calling in the stake to be able to meet with neat ladies.
14. I'm grateful for orange deodorizer.
15. I'm grateful for my friend Stacy who makes me laugh all the time.
16. I'm grateful for my husband Ron who makes me laugh because we are both dorks together.
17. I'm grateful for customers who actually listen to me.
18. I'm grateful for Weight watchers. It helps me on this journey
19. I'm grateful for warm sunny days
20. I'm grateful for scriptures that answer my every day prayers
21. I'm grateful for courage to speak up
22. I'm grateful for hands to hold babies and type
23. I'm grateful for my step dad Jerrry who has always loved me and respected me. He thinks my family is the bomb
24. I'm grateful that Nancy lets us use grandma's garage.
25. I'm grateful for my home. Its safe and cozy and warm, and almost done with construction
26. CTR rings to help me remember to have a current temple recommend
27. My original wedding ring.
28. My van that holds 6 d.v.d.'s
29. comfortable shoes, and
Onlineshoes.com that sells them to me cheap
30. The Swim-ex at Just for Ladies that keeps me in better shape.
31. God helping me in my food weakness
32. Strength and energy to lift this heavy equipment
33. Old visiting teaching sisters that still love me and are my friends even though I'm not 'assigned' to them
34. I'm grateful for Food. Its a love/hate relationship
35. I'm grateful for Dr. Faline who has helped me in my struggles
36 I'm grateful I look good in red. I wear it alot with Ron's work.
37. I'm grateful for my voice that helps me stand up for truth and righteousness, even when it means standing alone.
38. I'm grateful for Vaughn Hokanson for his example and purity
39. I'm grateful for spiritual eyes
40. I'm grateful for my name. It means little ole wise one.
41. I'm grateful for compassion I have for others struggles. I can relate. Been there and done that.
42. I'm grateful for Yahoo and facebook that keeps me in touch with friends and family, even my own daughter who is in the other room
43. I'm grateful for gum. I have chewed gum since 6th grade. Must have been my bad breath.
44. I am grateful for danon smoothies and almonds for breakfast in the morning.
45. I'm grateful for a vacuum cleaner that will suck your socks off. NO MORE CRAPPY ONES.
46. I'm grateful for my warm cozy bed.
47. I'm grateful for long hair, now people can tell debbie and I apart, LOL
48. I'm grateful for forgiveness. That I can forgive so I don't hurt.
49. I'm grateful for adoption. I pray that "josh" was raised in a good LDS home
50. I'm grateful for bunk beds, so I have room for kids in a small house.
TO BE CONTINUED
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
"you know where you are supposed to be"
Last night was enrichment night.
Last night was very cold.
Yesterday was very annoying. I was cleaning house getting ready to have the mission-ladies (karrea's word) over for supper and the next thing I know there is a miter saw in my TV room and saw dust everywhere after I just spent the morning dusting and cleaning.
I was the one who asked Ron if he could get the new blinds up so I tried really hard not to complain too loud.
Ron, being the perfectist that he is needed to get some new trim too. Off to Menards we go. Had in mind what we were getting. Got there (mistake number one, we took the 3 year old) and they were OUT of what we thought we needed. FIGURES.
We go looking around and find the REAL wood. It's 3 times the money. Now if Menards would have ordered the exact windows that I ASKED FOR we wouldn't need this so called "trim". We received window that were 1/2 on each side too small. John the manager helped us with the shimmies and nails earlier this summer, MAYBE he'll help us with the silly trim, that we wouldn't need!
They were very kind to oblige me. Mistake number 2 was letting Ron and Brad walk around trying to find a different trim. I'm off trying to entertain a 3 year old "are we going home yet?" for the 10th time. I take her to the christmas lights. I'm getting tired. The Clock is ticking and I have things to do to get prepared for supper. I don't know if Adrienne and her date Justin are eating with us or not. That makes 9 people over, possibly.
I feel my nerve (I only have one left) shot! I go over to Ron and say 'I thought we decided on the 1/4 circle trim. Why are you trying to find something different?' He is flustered by this time too and we just pick up the 1/4 round. WHEW! Thank you. Lets get out of here. UGH.
Brad gives this trim to us and we head off to home. NOPE Karrea wants nuggets and fries. We hadn't eaten lunch. Mistake number 3. Eat before you spend hours at Menards, especially with a 3 year old "PRINCESS". She already had the toy that she got in the happy meal so Ron ran in to exchange. HEY...a new Ron, he would have said TOUGH a few months ago, due to his shyness.
We get home and we let whiney pants eat her nuggets and fries with "dippy dippy sauce" (homemade ranch). I'm fried. My house is a disaster. I try and sit down and play a game or two to relax, that didn't go over very well, it froze up my computer. Ron is getting frustrated because he can't figure how to cut it. I'm trying to explain it to him, but his mind is not wrapping around the 45 degree angle and how to do it on a miter saw. He admits he's too proud to call his friend Brother Wolfe. We had words flying and dust flying and frustrations are getting hotter.
I finally send him off to get the mission-ladies. He shows up at 5:15, when Supper was ready at 5:00 and always is. We were just about ready to start without him. I have been known to be stood up by the missionaries, it must be the Matson curse. *(side note below) I learned "if you snooze you lose" The men arrived and I'm a little on the edgy side. Supper goes well.
I laugh at Ron and say 'Should I tell them now or later'. Elder Benards pushes his plate away (second helpings). He's like..."what?" I laugh and say 'Those are wheat noodles. Have you had them before? The more you drink the more swollen they get. You think you can eat lots and lots of pasta, but you drink a glass of water and it hits you like a ton of bricks and it cleans you right out. HAHA' Elder Gwenn says "my mom served us wheat noodles, I'm used to it" OKAY. Not 10 minutes later they are bloated. (and so was I, thank goodness for water and a big salad before the pasta).
We are sitting there miserable. Elder G says he's going to call Jenn to see if she is going to Enrichment tonight. She hesitates in going. Elder G hands me the phone and I blurt out 'if you don't go I don't go' She felt guilty and we set up that I would pick her and the kids up and we would GO. DANG we both wanted to sit at home just relaxing in our WARM and COZY homes for the night.
We got to enrichment, took the kids down to the play area where the Activity day girls were watching the little ones. The Activities were Quilting (you really didn't want me helping, haha).
Making stockings for the needy. Making homemade cards for the Hospital. Did someone say stamping?????? I'm in. Jenn and I sat at the stamping table laughing and carrying on and really enjoying the ladies at the table. I cut the cards and pretty paper and top paper. The other "stations" they had were cutting paper with deckle scissors, gluing the cards together, putting them in an envelope. We needed to make 350 cards.
By 8:30 we were only half way done. Activity day girls needed to be relieved of their services but most of us at the Stamp table stayed while the others took their kids home. We finally got done around 10:00. I enjoyed every minute. I hope the non-member ladies that Amber brought enjoyed themselves.
I never used to go to enrichment. I really didn't understand what it was. It was called Homemaking back in the day. I started to go with the Guidance of Pam Carlson. When I would question what my plans were for the night she would look at me and say...."YOU KNOW WHERE HEAVENLY FATHER WANTS/NEEDS YOU TO BE"
I told Jenn when I heard the hestitation in her voice, 'if we both feel like we don't want to go, that means Satan doesn't want us to go, so LET'S GO.' She was game with that I'm so grateful. She is a neat little gal. New in the gospel. New into these spiritual experiences. I'm grateful for her and the opportunity I have to be her visiting teacher. She teaches me more than I teach her.
I know where I'm supposed to be. And YOU?
*side note. The Matson's usually get dogged on their birthdays, we usually get dogged on the free t-shirt hand outs, we usually get dogged out on Visiting teachers coming regularly, and Home teachers visiting regularly, its very low self esteem building.
Last night was very cold.
Yesterday was very annoying. I was cleaning house getting ready to have the mission-ladies (karrea's word) over for supper and the next thing I know there is a miter saw in my TV room and saw dust everywhere after I just spent the morning dusting and cleaning.
I was the one who asked Ron if he could get the new blinds up so I tried really hard not to complain too loud.
Ron, being the perfectist that he is needed to get some new trim too. Off to Menards we go. Had in mind what we were getting. Got there (mistake number one, we took the 3 year old) and they were OUT of what we thought we needed. FIGURES.
We go looking around and find the REAL wood. It's 3 times the money. Now if Menards would have ordered the exact windows that I ASKED FOR we wouldn't need this so called "trim". We received window that were 1/2 on each side too small. John the manager helped us with the shimmies and nails earlier this summer, MAYBE he'll help us with the silly trim, that we wouldn't need!
They were very kind to oblige me. Mistake number 2 was letting Ron and Brad walk around trying to find a different trim. I'm off trying to entertain a 3 year old "are we going home yet?" for the 10th time. I take her to the christmas lights. I'm getting tired. The Clock is ticking and I have things to do to get prepared for supper. I don't know if Adrienne and her date Justin are eating with us or not. That makes 9 people over, possibly.
I feel my nerve (I only have one left) shot! I go over to Ron and say 'I thought we decided on the 1/4 circle trim. Why are you trying to find something different?' He is flustered by this time too and we just pick up the 1/4 round. WHEW! Thank you. Lets get out of here. UGH.
Brad gives this trim to us and we head off to home. NOPE Karrea wants nuggets and fries. We hadn't eaten lunch. Mistake number 3. Eat before you spend hours at Menards, especially with a 3 year old "PRINCESS". She already had the toy that she got in the happy meal so Ron ran in to exchange. HEY...a new Ron, he would have said TOUGH a few months ago, due to his shyness.
We get home and we let whiney pants eat her nuggets and fries with "dippy dippy sauce" (homemade ranch). I'm fried. My house is a disaster. I try and sit down and play a game or two to relax, that didn't go over very well, it froze up my computer. Ron is getting frustrated because he can't figure how to cut it. I'm trying to explain it to him, but his mind is not wrapping around the 45 degree angle and how to do it on a miter saw. He admits he's too proud to call his friend Brother Wolfe. We had words flying and dust flying and frustrations are getting hotter.
I finally send him off to get the mission-ladies. He shows up at 5:15, when Supper was ready at 5:00 and always is. We were just about ready to start without him. I have been known to be stood up by the missionaries, it must be the Matson curse. *(side note below) I learned "if you snooze you lose" The men arrived and I'm a little on the edgy side. Supper goes well.
I laugh at Ron and say 'Should I tell them now or later'. Elder Benards pushes his plate away (second helpings). He's like..."what?" I laugh and say 'Those are wheat noodles. Have you had them before? The more you drink the more swollen they get. You think you can eat lots and lots of pasta, but you drink a glass of water and it hits you like a ton of bricks and it cleans you right out. HAHA' Elder Gwenn says "my mom served us wheat noodles, I'm used to it" OKAY. Not 10 minutes later they are bloated. (and so was I, thank goodness for water and a big salad before the pasta).
We are sitting there miserable. Elder G says he's going to call Jenn to see if she is going to Enrichment tonight. She hesitates in going. Elder G hands me the phone and I blurt out 'if you don't go I don't go' She felt guilty and we set up that I would pick her and the kids up and we would GO. DANG we both wanted to sit at home just relaxing in our WARM and COZY homes for the night.
We got to enrichment, took the kids down to the play area where the Activity day girls were watching the little ones. The Activities were Quilting (you really didn't want me helping, haha).
Making stockings for the needy. Making homemade cards for the Hospital. Did someone say stamping?????? I'm in. Jenn and I sat at the stamping table laughing and carrying on and really enjoying the ladies at the table. I cut the cards and pretty paper and top paper. The other "stations" they had were cutting paper with deckle scissors, gluing the cards together, putting them in an envelope. We needed to make 350 cards.
By 8:30 we were only half way done. Activity day girls needed to be relieved of their services but most of us at the Stamp table stayed while the others took their kids home. We finally got done around 10:00. I enjoyed every minute. I hope the non-member ladies that Amber brought enjoyed themselves.
I never used to go to enrichment. I really didn't understand what it was. It was called Homemaking back in the day. I started to go with the Guidance of Pam Carlson. When I would question what my plans were for the night she would look at me and say...."YOU KNOW WHERE HEAVENLY FATHER WANTS/NEEDS YOU TO BE"
I told Jenn when I heard the hestitation in her voice, 'if we both feel like we don't want to go, that means Satan doesn't want us to go, so LET'S GO.' She was game with that I'm so grateful. She is a neat little gal. New in the gospel. New into these spiritual experiences. I'm grateful for her and the opportunity I have to be her visiting teacher. She teaches me more than I teach her.
I know where I'm supposed to be. And YOU?
*side note. The Matson's usually get dogged on their birthdays, we usually get dogged on the free t-shirt hand outs, we usually get dogged out on Visiting teachers coming regularly, and Home teachers visiting regularly, its very low self esteem building.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
"In the meridian of time, among other things, the Savior gave a touch here, a kind word there, food (both real and spiritual) to the hungry, advice and counsel to those in need. He gave prayers with the frightened, kindness to the passed-over, respect and affection for the children, loving care for those who are burdened. “And thus we see that by small means the Lord can bring about great things."
--Stephen A. West, "Out of Small Things", Ensign, May 1999, 28
D&C 64:33
You can make the pathway bright, Hymn #228
I'm on a group called Lessons of Life and its teaching me how to journal my lessons. They should start with scripture and a quote or two. I recieve NUGGETS and so a lot of my quotes come from the daily email I receive. Some pop out at me, at different times and I relish in them.
This is Shay's life lesson today. I had a couple actually.
1. Shai is responsible for getting up for Seminary, and just because she isn't up doesn't mean that I shouldn't go and work out.
2. When and If I sleep in past 6:30, Satan uses my dreams for evil. I hate that. I sleep hardest in the hour between 7-8:30 and that is when Satan creeps in and uses false things to ruin my day.
3. Always pray for guidance.
I have been impressed to visit "sarah" *named changed. Several times today I have asked for guidance as to when I should go and what I should say to her. Tuesday used to be my Visiting teaching day, but now Thursday works better for my companion. Works for me too. My mind and body are still on Tuesdays after Weight watchers and Subway. Ron left Subway and headed home and I said to Heavenly Father, where do you want me. A vision of Turtle something came into my mind. OKAY. So I headed to TCBY. Its "weight" friendlier. So I walked it and saw a turtle something. I took it up to the counter and I asked her the price. over 16.00 I didn't have that much money. I asked what the 14.00 was and she said "that is cake. Turtle cake" So I went over to the freezer and that was what my vision was. I picked it up, put the PIE back and checked out.
I headed over to Sarahs house. Sat in her driveway and it didn't feel right. I didn't feel like she was home. I called her. She said she was at an investigators house. I said...'Are you over at "julie's " name changed. She said, why yes I am. I said would it be ackward to come over? Let me speak to Elder so and so. I talked with him, he said they were only going to be there a few minutes and they didn't need me. Okay.
So I left Sarah's house. Okay...Heavenly FAther, I'm confused. I heard him say...Go to "Julie's house with the cake!" Okay, but Elder so and so said...Oh well, if he's mad at me, so be it. God will make it right.
I headed over there. They were outside. I came walking up and I had the cake in hand. She said, why are you here? I said I don't, He just told me to come and give you this cake! She looked at Elder so and so, I said, NO He didn't tell me to, HE told me too. She gave me a hug and I whispered in her ear. HE LOVES YOU!!! He knows you!
The spirit came over me and I could feel tears coming. I said, I'm sorry, I'm just a little freaked out, I'm not sure why I'm here.
It was cold outside and they just got over the stomach flu and so I left and said see you friday at Enrichment night and Sunday at church.
I got back to Sarah's house and we were talking. She said, did you know it was Julie's birthday on thursday? UM, NO!!!!!!!!
They just (meaning Sarah and the missionaries) looked at me and I just said, I'm just doing what God wants me to do. He wants me to give this to you. (the october new era) Not knowing she is planning and struggling to go to the temple and this is the temple addition.
I'm not a perfect mom. I'm not a perfect Visiting teacher, I'm not a perfect babysitter, I'm not a perfect teacher. I'm not a perfect wife, I'm not a perfect stake counselor. In fact, I am more on the dork side of things.
What I am is willing to do what God wants me to without a score. I have seen a score keeper. I used to be a score keeper. Its not fun. A score keeper just ends up losing the game and spirit. Peoples spirit can tell if you are serving for "SCORE" and when you are serving because of the pure love that you have. I choose just to do what God needs from me and let him keep score. He is better at this than I am. ha ha
Sarah needed me tonight. God knew that. Julie needed all of us. She is so tender in the discussions. Sarah is so new to the gospel. I really appreciate that God speaks to those who can serve. I am grateful that I choose to listen.
That is my lesson today. A small cake may go a long way. (and its low fat too, ha ha)
God loves each of us. Is VERY mindful. If we are but faithful, hopeful and full of charity!
--Stephen A. West, "Out of Small Things", Ensign, May 1999, 28
D&C 64:33
You can make the pathway bright, Hymn #228
I'm on a group called Lessons of Life and its teaching me how to journal my lessons. They should start with scripture and a quote or two. I recieve NUGGETS and so a lot of my quotes come from the daily email I receive. Some pop out at me, at different times and I relish in them.
This is Shay's life lesson today. I had a couple actually.
1. Shai is responsible for getting up for Seminary, and just because she isn't up doesn't mean that I shouldn't go and work out.
2. When and If I sleep in past 6:30, Satan uses my dreams for evil. I hate that. I sleep hardest in the hour between 7-8:30 and that is when Satan creeps in and uses false things to ruin my day.
3. Always pray for guidance.
I have been impressed to visit "sarah" *named changed. Several times today I have asked for guidance as to when I should go and what I should say to her. Tuesday used to be my Visiting teaching day, but now Thursday works better for my companion. Works for me too. My mind and body are still on Tuesdays after Weight watchers and Subway. Ron left Subway and headed home and I said to Heavenly Father, where do you want me. A vision of Turtle something came into my mind. OKAY. So I headed to TCBY. Its "weight" friendlier. So I walked it and saw a turtle something. I took it up to the counter and I asked her the price. over 16.00 I didn't have that much money. I asked what the 14.00 was and she said "that is cake. Turtle cake" So I went over to the freezer and that was what my vision was. I picked it up, put the PIE back and checked out.
I headed over to Sarahs house. Sat in her driveway and it didn't feel right. I didn't feel like she was home. I called her. She said she was at an investigators house. I said...'Are you over at "julie's " name changed. She said, why yes I am. I said would it be ackward to come over? Let me speak to Elder so and so. I talked with him, he said they were only going to be there a few minutes and they didn't need me. Okay.
So I left Sarah's house. Okay...Heavenly FAther, I'm confused. I heard him say...Go to "Julie's house with the cake!" Okay, but Elder so and so said...Oh well, if he's mad at me, so be it. God will make it right.
I headed over there. They were outside. I came walking up and I had the cake in hand. She said, why are you here? I said I don't, He just told me to come and give you this cake! She looked at Elder so and so, I said, NO He didn't tell me to, HE told me too. She gave me a hug and I whispered in her ear. HE LOVES YOU!!! He knows you!
The spirit came over me and I could feel tears coming. I said, I'm sorry, I'm just a little freaked out, I'm not sure why I'm here.
It was cold outside and they just got over the stomach flu and so I left and said see you friday at Enrichment night and Sunday at church.
I got back to Sarah's house and we were talking. She said, did you know it was Julie's birthday on thursday? UM, NO!!!!!!!!
They just (meaning Sarah and the missionaries) looked at me and I just said, I'm just doing what God wants me to do. He wants me to give this to you. (the october new era) Not knowing she is planning and struggling to go to the temple and this is the temple addition.
I'm not a perfect mom. I'm not a perfect Visiting teacher, I'm not a perfect babysitter, I'm not a perfect teacher. I'm not a perfect wife, I'm not a perfect stake counselor. In fact, I am more on the dork side of things.
What I am is willing to do what God wants me to without a score. I have seen a score keeper. I used to be a score keeper. Its not fun. A score keeper just ends up losing the game and spirit. Peoples spirit can tell if you are serving for "SCORE" and when you are serving because of the pure love that you have. I choose just to do what God needs from me and let him keep score. He is better at this than I am. ha ha
Sarah needed me tonight. God knew that. Julie needed all of us. She is so tender in the discussions. Sarah is so new to the gospel. I really appreciate that God speaks to those who can serve. I am grateful that I choose to listen.
That is my lesson today. A small cake may go a long way. (and its low fat too, ha ha)
God loves each of us. Is VERY mindful. If we are but faithful, hopeful and full of charity!
Monday, November 17, 2008
Gift of Gab
Ron had a job set up for 3:00 today, November 17, 2008. As I was starting to do laundry and a few other things around the house Ron checked his phone messages and there was a gentlemen who needed some carpets cleaned by Heaven’s Best (that’s us, ha ha)
So being the MOUTH of the house, business, family, job, etc. I called and set up the appointment. Ron feels very uncomfortable speaking to people in general especially people he doesn’t know. He barely speaks to me, unless he’s mad, ha ha, and then I tell him to shhhh!
Terry needed his living room cleaned and today would be wonderful. So we loaded everything into the van and headed off to Lakeview Cove. Terry was a very common, nice man. Drove up to his drive way and there is a deer carcuss on the ground. I told Ron, ‘what, does he want me to lose my breakfast?’ (which I just finished a dannon light and fit smoothie) With that thought in mind, when I saw Terry in the garage, I repeated it to him. He chuckled. Inside my mind I was saying ‘Shay, you talk to much.’
We got busy cleaning. Terry was in and out of the house a few times. Each time I had my back turned to him and he scared me and since I have a big mouth I would say…’are you trying to scare me?’ He would laugh and say, “NO”. I kept repeating to myself as I would go outside and enter through the garage. Shanon, you talk to much. You just need to learn to hush. Most people don’t want to talk to the “help”. For some reason I just felt very comfortable talking to him.
I saw a picture on the desk of a girl that had a Kearney Lopers t-shirt on. I asked if he had a daughter. He hesitated. I thought, uh oh, open mouth insert foot. He finally said, “Yes we have a daughter.” I asked if her name was Melissa, he replied, “No, her name is Becky” I said, ‘I don’t mean to be nosey but she sure looks familiar.’ We talked a little bit about her.
I couldn’t tell if he felt comfortable talking with me or not. My mouth kept going though. I felt impressed to go out and get the bill and as I was heading through the front door he said, “are you ready to settle up some business?” ‘Sure’ so I headed up the split level house. Beautiful home if I may add.
I asked how he heard of Heaven’s Best Carpet Cleaning and he said he has had it for years, just not us. So I explained to him about Norm’s offer and how I worked with my dad for years. That is why I’m the mouth of the business and Ron is the braun of the business (even tho I can hold my own and do just what he does, humph)
I told him we were interested in moving to Hastings but has had no luck. He said he had a house for sale. Wow, really? I told him what I was looking for, we have four kids we live in a house that is 2026 sq.ft and need something that size or bigger. He said, “I’ll sell you this house?” He says he “flips” houses. He needs to finish two bathrooms and then he’ll be ready to go. I said, ‘tell you what, when you are ready to sell this home, will you give us a tour and maybe by then the bank will not only go on my income (which the bank said 105,000 is all we could buy a house for) but Ron’s income too. Which is quite nice for a change. (I can see the confidence grow in him, and he really has learned great responsibilities. Its great seeing it) He told me it was a deal. He also told us to go around the corner and look at his friends house, it has a pool and only 159,000. REALLY? He said “ houses are going great around here. You’ll be surprised, there is a lot of junk out there too.”
So as I was packing up the van and pondering on Terry’s insight, I couldn’t help but Thank Heavenly Father for my gift to gab. I truly feel like Terry was supposed to talk to me about these things. I would love to live in a home on Lakeview Cove. I would love to have a pool. I am an advide swimmer, it is my second love (after you put my husband and children and the Lord first, LOL)
More and more I find that most people are really nice. There are a few people out there that spoil it but I’m grateful for the majority of you who are kind and smile and give people a break. You cranky people know who you are. May God grant you kindness and peace. (yes, granny, I’m talking to you! Ha ha)
Lesson today…Be Grateful for EVERY GOOD gift God gives you!
So being the MOUTH of the house, business, family, job, etc. I called and set up the appointment. Ron feels very uncomfortable speaking to people in general especially people he doesn’t know. He barely speaks to me, unless he’s mad, ha ha, and then I tell him to shhhh!
Terry needed his living room cleaned and today would be wonderful. So we loaded everything into the van and headed off to Lakeview Cove. Terry was a very common, nice man. Drove up to his drive way and there is a deer carcuss on the ground. I told Ron, ‘what, does he want me to lose my breakfast?’ (which I just finished a dannon light and fit smoothie) With that thought in mind, when I saw Terry in the garage, I repeated it to him. He chuckled. Inside my mind I was saying ‘Shay, you talk to much.’
We got busy cleaning. Terry was in and out of the house a few times. Each time I had my back turned to him and he scared me and since I have a big mouth I would say…’are you trying to scare me?’ He would laugh and say, “NO”. I kept repeating to myself as I would go outside and enter through the garage. Shanon, you talk to much. You just need to learn to hush. Most people don’t want to talk to the “help”. For some reason I just felt very comfortable talking to him.
I saw a picture on the desk of a girl that had a Kearney Lopers t-shirt on. I asked if he had a daughter. He hesitated. I thought, uh oh, open mouth insert foot. He finally said, “Yes we have a daughter.” I asked if her name was Melissa, he replied, “No, her name is Becky” I said, ‘I don’t mean to be nosey but she sure looks familiar.’ We talked a little bit about her.
I couldn’t tell if he felt comfortable talking with me or not. My mouth kept going though. I felt impressed to go out and get the bill and as I was heading through the front door he said, “are you ready to settle up some business?” ‘Sure’ so I headed up the split level house. Beautiful home if I may add.
I asked how he heard of Heaven’s Best Carpet Cleaning and he said he has had it for years, just not us. So I explained to him about Norm’s offer and how I worked with my dad for years. That is why I’m the mouth of the business and Ron is the braun of the business (even tho I can hold my own and do just what he does, humph)
I told him we were interested in moving to Hastings but has had no luck. He said he had a house for sale. Wow, really? I told him what I was looking for, we have four kids we live in a house that is 2026 sq.ft and need something that size or bigger. He said, “I’ll sell you this house?” He says he “flips” houses. He needs to finish two bathrooms and then he’ll be ready to go. I said, ‘tell you what, when you are ready to sell this home, will you give us a tour and maybe by then the bank will not only go on my income (which the bank said 105,000 is all we could buy a house for) but Ron’s income too. Which is quite nice for a change. (I can see the confidence grow in him, and he really has learned great responsibilities. Its great seeing it) He told me it was a deal. He also told us to go around the corner and look at his friends house, it has a pool and only 159,000. REALLY? He said “ houses are going great around here. You’ll be surprised, there is a lot of junk out there too.”
So as I was packing up the van and pondering on Terry’s insight, I couldn’t help but Thank Heavenly Father for my gift to gab. I truly feel like Terry was supposed to talk to me about these things. I would love to live in a home on Lakeview Cove. I would love to have a pool. I am an advide swimmer, it is my second love (after you put my husband and children and the Lord first, LOL)
More and more I find that most people are really nice. There are a few people out there that spoil it but I’m grateful for the majority of you who are kind and smile and give people a break. You cranky people know who you are. May God grant you kindness and peace. (yes, granny, I’m talking to you! Ha ha)
Lesson today…Be Grateful for EVERY GOOD gift God gives you!
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Change is Good
I decided it was time for me to take a reality picture of myself. I find I have changed. Change is good!
In light of Thanksgiving, I wanted to make a list of things I've changed, and find myself grateful for the change, even though at the moment (most things) were VERY painful to change.
I'm going to start with physical change.
1. I have let my hair grow longer. Between Ron's comment of "I didn't marry a butch" to a "sister" in the ward annoyed by my short hairstyle I have decided it was time to let it go.
2. I have lost 10 pounds since August 25.
3. I have bought some new clothes.
4. I have bought new jeans. And I don't mind wearing the size I bought.
5. I have changed my work out. I go in the morning and swim. My body likes that
My home has changed.
(I say I have "lost" my home, but its only losing it as I knew it. I was never homeless, just 1/2 , the west half, ha ha)
God knew we didn't have the money for repairs and updates, so the storm took care of the money...Insurance paid for it.
1. Since the June 5, 2008 storm my home is different
a. My entry way is "wood" now (its actually wood looking linoleum)
b. My t.v. room and dining room have new carpet
c. My kitchen has "wood" floors.
d. We have a new Kitchen table
e. We have new windows
f. New Roof
g. New Paint on the outside
h. New Paint on the Kitchen walls
i. New paint in the kids bathroom and fixtures and skylight, and lights
My family has changed.
1. I became a "work outside the home mom. " (at least 2 days a week)
2. Ron and I work together now and enjoy each others company. He is such a great (perfectionist) worker, and I'm a good gopher girl. I love talking with the customers.
3. Adrienne has been helping out with the Daycare. (She is getting so much experience. She looks so natural with Baby Dustin now and is getting more patient with the older kids)
4. Shai found new friends in the High School Musical she was in. (she is happier)
It was so fun seeing her talents soar!
5. Karrea is getting so big. She is a big helper. She is into make-up and dress up clothes and movies and books.
6. Justice is one of the top 4 students in his school and that bolstered his confidence. It will be fun to see how well he does in the primary program. His music teacher, Mrs. Cox tells me she loves him. (blush)
7. Ron has really broadened his talents in the remodeling, and we actually work great together.
I have a new talent and "like" I like to paint walls. Wow. That surprises me.
My spiritual change.
1. I used to have anxiety attacks. Not knowing that is what they were, I really thought they
were mitral valve episodes but since August 25, I haven't had an episode. STRANGE. That is the day my BFF quit speaking to me because I talked to her and her daughter about Shai's feelings
2. I have been led to a wonderful new friend who lifts me up and makes me laugh my buns off.
3. I have found some scripture time with the family. (I have always had MY time. Well, the
past 14 years anyway)
4. I have a new calling as the Stake Primary 1st counselor working with Wonderful, funny, beautiful women. Who want to attend the temple on a regular basis. YAY
5. I actually want to go to Relief Society.
6. I have a new Visiting teaching companion, who blesses my life and I bless hers. She loves it when I call and we go out to these super wonderful ladies.
7. I have new visiting teaching ladies. I am soooo very sad that I don't have the sisters that I had, but I hope they know I love them and would still do anything for them. They have a good VT that will spread her wings and love and serve them.
8. I have set boundaries with a few sisters at the church. It feels like freedom.
Our Cars have changed
1. I had to buy a different van because my Sillohette got totaled in the the hail storm
2. Ron bought me a temple car. One that gets great gas mileage.
3. We have a cute work van. It has a huge LOGO picture of a cute little girl on it that catches
every one's attention and has gotten us a few jobs, just for the LOGO. Heaven's Best Carpet Cleaning, Look it up, you'll see what I mean.
4. Ron is hoping to sell his Chevy S10 and his Chrysler so he can get a full-size chevy that will fit the whole family.
5. Adrienne bought a 1980 something Iroc Z from a friend and its in the process of getting fixed up. So that is a new toy for her.
As you can see....lots of changes, and they are all welcomed.
Thank you for the rainbow at the end of the storms of change.
In light of Thanksgiving, I wanted to make a list of things I've changed, and find myself grateful for the change, even though at the moment (most things) were VERY painful to change.
I'm going to start with physical change.
1. I have let my hair grow longer. Between Ron's comment of "I didn't marry a butch" to a "sister" in the ward annoyed by my short hairstyle I have decided it was time to let it go.
2. I have lost 10 pounds since August 25.
3. I have bought some new clothes.
4. I have bought new jeans. And I don't mind wearing the size I bought.
5. I have changed my work out. I go in the morning and swim. My body likes that
My home has changed.
(I say I have "lost" my home, but its only losing it as I knew it. I was never homeless, just 1/2 , the west half, ha ha)
God knew we didn't have the money for repairs and updates, so the storm took care of the money...Insurance paid for it.
1. Since the June 5, 2008 storm my home is different
a. My entry way is "wood" now (its actually wood looking linoleum)
b. My t.v. room and dining room have new carpet
c. My kitchen has "wood" floors.
d. We have a new Kitchen table
e. We have new windows
f. New Roof
g. New Paint on the outside
h. New Paint on the Kitchen walls
i. New paint in the kids bathroom and fixtures and skylight, and lights
My family has changed.
1. I became a "work outside the home mom. " (at least 2 days a week)
2. Ron and I work together now and enjoy each others company. He is such a great (perfectionist) worker, and I'm a good gopher girl. I love talking with the customers.
3. Adrienne has been helping out with the Daycare. (She is getting so much experience. She looks so natural with Baby Dustin now and is getting more patient with the older kids)
4. Shai found new friends in the High School Musical she was in. (she is happier)
It was so fun seeing her talents soar!
5. Karrea is getting so big. She is a big helper. She is into make-up and dress up clothes and movies and books.
6. Justice is one of the top 4 students in his school and that bolstered his confidence. It will be fun to see how well he does in the primary program. His music teacher, Mrs. Cox tells me she loves him. (blush)
7. Ron has really broadened his talents in the remodeling, and we actually work great together.
I have a new talent and "like" I like to paint walls. Wow. That surprises me.
My spiritual change.
1. I used to have anxiety attacks. Not knowing that is what they were, I really thought they
were mitral valve episodes but since August 25, I haven't had an episode. STRANGE. That is the day my BFF quit speaking to me because I talked to her and her daughter about Shai's feelings
2. I have been led to a wonderful new friend who lifts me up and makes me laugh my buns off.
3. I have found some scripture time with the family. (I have always had MY time. Well, the
past 14 years anyway)
4. I have a new calling as the Stake Primary 1st counselor working with Wonderful, funny, beautiful women. Who want to attend the temple on a regular basis. YAY
5. I actually want to go to Relief Society.
6. I have a new Visiting teaching companion, who blesses my life and I bless hers. She loves it when I call and we go out to these super wonderful ladies.
7. I have new visiting teaching ladies. I am soooo very sad that I don't have the sisters that I had, but I hope they know I love them and would still do anything for them. They have a good VT that will spread her wings and love and serve them.
8. I have set boundaries with a few sisters at the church. It feels like freedom.
Our Cars have changed
1. I had to buy a different van because my Sillohette got totaled in the the hail storm
2. Ron bought me a temple car. One that gets great gas mileage.
3. We have a cute work van. It has a huge LOGO picture of a cute little girl on it that catches
every one's attention and has gotten us a few jobs, just for the LOGO. Heaven's Best Carpet Cleaning, Look it up, you'll see what I mean.
4. Ron is hoping to sell his Chevy S10 and his Chrysler so he can get a full-size chevy that will fit the whole family.
5. Adrienne bought a 1980 something Iroc Z from a friend and its in the process of getting fixed up. So that is a new toy for her.
As you can see....lots of changes, and they are all welcomed.
Thank you for the rainbow at the end of the storms of change.
Truly Serving
"Serving others need not come from spectacular events. Often it is the simple daily act that gives comfort, uplifts, encourages, sustains, and brings smiles to others." Elder Michael J. Teh of the Seventy
James 1:22, 27
22 But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves
27 Pure areligion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.
I have seen the tender mercies of the Lord over my 40 years. I have hoped to be part of God's tender mercies in Giving too. I have really appreciated the things that I have received from "strangers" and from "cyberfriends" and from visiting teachers, and neighbors.
I thought I would pass on a service that I received with great surprise.
March 17 of this year my husband lost his job due to agency of the owners. They went bankrupt. Coleman Powermate closed the doors. My husband worked there for over 19 years. (deep breath)I know I was green for a few days. Even after receiving a blessing from Elder Sovine I still could not see much color in my face, my soul, or my heart.
It's hard having faith and fear at the same time. You simply CAN'T. But how do you erase the fear and live in faith when you don't see a pay check coming in? In my blessing it told me to continue to serve. Continue on the path I have set. Continue to love and show honor and respect and show your children your great faith. So I continued to serve. I visit teach a young mom that lives about 40 miles away, one way. Gas being 3. 49 a gallon. Not a big deal. We visited, enjoyed each other and went our way (after a 4 hour visit, yes this is normal, ha ha. Must be the Hillbilly in us. LOL)
Well, the next day after I got done serving in the nursery at our local Ladies Work out center (this is where I get a free membership, so I can continue to relieve stress) I came home to a basket. A wicker basket with Breakfast goodies.
My heart was full and so was the basket. Pancake mix, eggs, milk, muffin mix, syrup, bagels, orange juice, sausage, hashbrowns, fruit spread, etc. It was unbelievable. I couldn't believe someone would do that. I was speechless!! (that doesn't happen very often.)I asked my kids Who Brought the Basket?
Rhonda did. What? Who? Huh? Rhonda did! The Sister I visit teach? YEP! Wow!
I was blown away and I felt very blessed! I was truly humbled. I was truly served. We ate that breakfast basket for a week(not the actual basket silly, the contents of it). I will always remember that basket and I plan on filling it up tomorrow or the next day to pass it along to another sister in the ward who needs it now I am going to PAY the true example of service ........FORWARD! !
Shay
Ilove you Rhonda, since the first time we served together 12 years ago
James 1:22, 27
22 But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves
27 Pure areligion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.
I have seen the tender mercies of the Lord over my 40 years. I have hoped to be part of God's tender mercies in Giving too. I have really appreciated the things that I have received from "strangers" and from "cyberfriends" and from visiting teachers, and neighbors.
I thought I would pass on a service that I received with great surprise.
March 17 of this year my husband lost his job due to agency of the owners. They went bankrupt. Coleman Powermate closed the doors. My husband worked there for over 19 years. (deep breath)I know I was green for a few days. Even after receiving a blessing from Elder Sovine I still could not see much color in my face, my soul, or my heart.
It's hard having faith and fear at the same time. You simply CAN'T. But how do you erase the fear and live in faith when you don't see a pay check coming in? In my blessing it told me to continue to serve. Continue on the path I have set. Continue to love and show honor and respect and show your children your great faith. So I continued to serve. I visit teach a young mom that lives about 40 miles away, one way. Gas being 3. 49 a gallon. Not a big deal. We visited, enjoyed each other and went our way (after a 4 hour visit, yes this is normal, ha ha. Must be the Hillbilly in us. LOL)
Well, the next day after I got done serving in the nursery at our local Ladies Work out center (this is where I get a free membership, so I can continue to relieve stress) I came home to a basket. A wicker basket with Breakfast goodies.
My heart was full and so was the basket. Pancake mix, eggs, milk, muffin mix, syrup, bagels, orange juice, sausage, hashbrowns, fruit spread, etc. It was unbelievable. I couldn't believe someone would do that. I was speechless!! (that doesn't happen very often.)I asked my kids Who Brought the Basket?
Rhonda did. What? Who? Huh? Rhonda did! The Sister I visit teach? YEP! Wow!
I was blown away and I felt very blessed! I was truly humbled. I was truly served. We ate that breakfast basket for a week(not the actual basket silly, the contents of it). I will always remember that basket and I plan on filling it up tomorrow or the next day to pass it along to another sister in the ward who needs it now I am going to PAY the true example of service ........FORWARD! !
Shay
Ilove you Rhonda, since the first time we served together 12 years ago
What you see is what you get!
When I first became the new list mom for Homeheartstrings@yahoogroups.com I was critisized for not doing it the right way. There were over 300 women on that site. Now there are under 100. I required everyone that was on that group to be real. Not just sit and watch the world go by but to participate. This list became REAL. REAL people, real life trials and real life lessons learned.
I shared who Shay was. (this is a nickname my twin brothers gave me when I was 16 and mom said I could have a phone but didn't want the "teenline" so perverts would call). I let other women share who they were. I don't know any other way. Offline I was critisized for not playing by email group rules. It hurt my feelings. I pondered what was sad. I prayed about my role as the "mom".
I can say almost 9 years later, it has only gotten better like a fine wine. These truly are my best friends. Ron lost his job in March and I had more online friends serve me. More than my own "ward family". That is okay. I truly have a testimony that God puts those in our lives for a purpose.
Now, that is not to say I didn't have service from my "ward family" I have a life lesson I wrote. Let me go search for it and post it in a different blog. Its called Truly Serving.
My point is, what I write and what I say in person are the same things. We all have days where we fake it til we make it. That is okay. There are times where I bite my tongue, grin and bear it and try to find the place God needs me to be. That is okay.
I am going to write things in here from my heart. I don't know who is going to be reading and enjoying or reading and cringing. (Because I will choose to be honest in my true feelings and they may hurt some people's feelings). This is my blog. This is my journey. I will welcome all comments whether it's positive or negative. I have been known to make lemons out of lemonade so I am welcoming everything. I just hope it can all be respectful and a learning experience.
Believe me I have been socked in the stomach many times over the last 40 years. I'm still here to tell the tale. I learned to roll with the punches and not hold a grudge.
I want my kids to know that I am who I am. I want you to be who you are. I want you to search deep into your souls, and find yourself on your knees pleading with God to guide you. Live your life so that the spirit can guide you. We don't have to be perfect to be righteous. We don't have to be perfect to have the Lord guide us, we just need to strive to be perfect.
What you see, is what you get with Shay
I shared who Shay was. (this is a nickname my twin brothers gave me when I was 16 and mom said I could have a phone but didn't want the "teenline" so perverts would call). I let other women share who they were. I don't know any other way. Offline I was critisized for not playing by email group rules. It hurt my feelings. I pondered what was sad. I prayed about my role as the "mom".
I can say almost 9 years later, it has only gotten better like a fine wine. These truly are my best friends. Ron lost his job in March and I had more online friends serve me. More than my own "ward family". That is okay. I truly have a testimony that God puts those in our lives for a purpose.
Now, that is not to say I didn't have service from my "ward family" I have a life lesson I wrote. Let me go search for it and post it in a different blog. Its called Truly Serving.
My point is, what I write and what I say in person are the same things. We all have days where we fake it til we make it. That is okay. There are times where I bite my tongue, grin and bear it and try to find the place God needs me to be. That is okay.
I am going to write things in here from my heart. I don't know who is going to be reading and enjoying or reading and cringing. (Because I will choose to be honest in my true feelings and they may hurt some people's feelings). This is my blog. This is my journey. I will welcome all comments whether it's positive or negative. I have been known to make lemons out of lemonade so I am welcoming everything. I just hope it can all be respectful and a learning experience.
Believe me I have been socked in the stomach many times over the last 40 years. I'm still here to tell the tale. I learned to roll with the punches and not hold a grudge.
I want my kids to know that I am who I am. I want you to be who you are. I want you to search deep into your souls, and find yourself on your knees pleading with God to guide you. Live your life so that the spirit can guide you. We don't have to be perfect to be righteous. We don't have to be perfect to have the Lord guide us, we just need to strive to be perfect.
What you see, is what you get with Shay
L.D.S woman
My friend and I were talking about food one time. She said to me...this is our Release (is that the word you used Tauna?) I thought about it. She is right.
I don't smoke.
I don't drink.
I don't read books (what's the sense I don't have a huge block of time without interruption.)
I don't party
I don't have money to go to the spa
or get my nails done...
I do work out at Just For Ladies and laugh my butt off with my SF. but when I'm at home or OUT working, I don't have a stress relief. I look for food.
I was home today. Bored. Feeling guilty for having food in the fridge that needed to be eaten. I didn't want it to go to WASTE, that it went to my waste. GUILT!!!!
I think its dumb.
It was good food. Brown rice and chicken. Mashed potatoes with FF sour cream, low fat cream cheese ( I don't know I didn't make them, Adrienne did and she wouldn't disclose how she made them, ancient chinese secret, lol)
But all day I have felt like a failure because 1. I didn't track my food 2. I did eat more than I needed too. 3. I should have found something else to do.
I heard that LDS women are the highest females on anti-depressants. I asked an expert, she said that was false, but I have to say....most of my friends/family use anti-depressants or anti-anxiety meds. For years I have thought I needed them too.
until I got a new friend, and a new workout. Now I feel great. People say I look great, yet...the food looms. The temptation, guilt looms.
I was going to touch on Time Out for Women insight.
One of the speakers talked about Sin and Weakness
Sin... who is the author? Satan
what is its purpose...to keep us away from God
What can we do?
We can repent
Weakness...who is the author? God
What is its purpose, "I give you weakness...so you can make them strengths"
What can we do...find purpose, and strength
(that was a nutshell)...it was out of a book Forgiving ourselves. I can't remember the author.
remind me later and I'll get my photo notes.
So I'm not a sinner by over eating. (unless I break the Word of Wisdom, which I don't do)
I'm just weak!!!!!
Wow, that hurt to type. Cuz I'm NOT a weak person. I value myself as a very strong person...physically and spiritually. (emotionally, i'm weak tho. I'm hyper sensitive)
I'm WEAK...I'm WEAK... I'm WEAK...Food speaks louder than that NO YOU DON'T NEED IT VOICE!!!
Where can I find the strength. I have prayed for strength from this weakness. Nothing is clicking....
Shay........it takes time. Be Patient....Be Kind to yourself.
How can I eat without guilt? HMMMMM. I may have to take Brooke up on her offer.
I don't smoke.
I don't drink.
I don't read books (what's the sense I don't have a huge block of time without interruption.)
I don't party
I don't have money to go to the spa
or get my nails done...
I do work out at Just For Ladies and laugh my butt off with my SF. but when I'm at home or OUT working, I don't have a stress relief. I look for food.
I was home today. Bored. Feeling guilty for having food in the fridge that needed to be eaten. I didn't want it to go to WASTE, that it went to my waste. GUILT!!!!
I think its dumb.
It was good food. Brown rice and chicken. Mashed potatoes with FF sour cream, low fat cream cheese ( I don't know I didn't make them, Adrienne did and she wouldn't disclose how she made them, ancient chinese secret, lol)
But all day I have felt like a failure because 1. I didn't track my food 2. I did eat more than I needed too. 3. I should have found something else to do.
I heard that LDS women are the highest females on anti-depressants. I asked an expert, she said that was false, but I have to say....most of my friends/family use anti-depressants or anti-anxiety meds. For years I have thought I needed them too.
until I got a new friend, and a new workout. Now I feel great. People say I look great, yet...the food looms. The temptation, guilt looms.
I was going to touch on Time Out for Women insight.
One of the speakers talked about Sin and Weakness
Sin... who is the author? Satan
what is its purpose...to keep us away from God
What can we do?
We can repent
Weakness...who is the author? God
What is its purpose, "I give you weakness...so you can make them strengths"
What can we do...find purpose, and strength
(that was a nutshell)...it was out of a book Forgiving ourselves. I can't remember the author.
remind me later and I'll get my photo notes.
So I'm not a sinner by over eating. (unless I break the Word of Wisdom, which I don't do)
I'm just weak!!!!!
Wow, that hurt to type. Cuz I'm NOT a weak person. I value myself as a very strong person...physically and spiritually. (emotionally, i'm weak tho. I'm hyper sensitive)
I'm WEAK...I'm WEAK... I'm WEAK...Food speaks louder than that NO YOU DON'T NEED IT VOICE!!!
Where can I find the strength. I have prayed for strength from this weakness. Nothing is clicking....
Shay........it takes time. Be Patient....Be Kind to yourself.
How can I eat without guilt? HMMMMM. I may have to take Brooke up on her offer.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
I LOVE FOOD
I LOVE FOOD. That is why I over eat. RIGHT? REALLY?!? I don’t really believe that anymore. I have been known to eat just so I don’t hurt someone’s feelings, when it wasn’t even appetizing, when it didn’t look right or taste right. I think I’m going to write some reason’s why I THINK eat.
1. Because It’s fun
2. Because I HAVE to.
3. Because its yummy
4. Because I’m bored
5. I’m angry
6. I’m sad
7. I’m happy
8. I’m with friends
9. I CAN
10. I’m frustrated
11. It’s the social thing to do
12. My tummy says to
13. My brain tells me to
14. I sit at my computer and what else is there when you have dinosaur dialup.
15. It’s a way I treat myself…see, food doesn’t sass!!
What are some tools I can use when I myself in this realm of FOOD?
1. I Don’t KNOW!!
Tuesday after Weight Watchers I sat in the car listing things that have made me crabby, and have made me eat.
1. Lots to do before Thanksgiving
2. Not being Organized about the food I am going to prepare
3. People are being Lazy at my house
4. I haven’t been tracking or journaling
5. I need to inquire of the Lord where my place in life is at this time, concerning ME
6. I am in pain some days.
7. I’m over goal weight and paying a monthly fee AGAIN
8. I need to clean out my body of sugar.
9. I need to forgive myself for freaking out when K.C. cut her hair. I could have handled it better.
10. Someone was mean to me. (potential customer hung up on me, told me I was unprofessional just because I called her hun.)
11. I have NO quiet time
12. I haven’t been getting enough rest since the time change. My body says its 10:00 but with everything that needs done I’m not getting to bed until after 11:00, and I get pestered after that.
13. I have a hard time recognizing Ron after he “Just For Men” his grey hair, now he looks like ELVIS. I know I should be ecstatic, but it’s a little strange trying to make out with a dead guy. I do have to say though. I think I lost 2 pounds laughing hestarically, I got an 8 minute ab workout.
If I look close enough, and if I read my Weight Watcher books I will find some tools. My inner resources.
1. I can say my computer desk is OFF LIMITS to food
2. I can type on my laptop instead of eating
3. I can call a friend
4. I can duct tape my mouth shut
5. I can pretend everything in the house is poisonous. Don’t EAT
6. I can take a deep breath and exale.
I believe that food is just one of my weaknesses. So next time I will share what I learned at Time Out For Women. NOTE TO SELF.
1. Because It’s fun
2. Because I HAVE to.
3. Because its yummy
4. Because I’m bored
5. I’m angry
6. I’m sad
7. I’m happy
8. I’m with friends
9. I CAN
10. I’m frustrated
11. It’s the social thing to do
12. My tummy says to
13. My brain tells me to
14. I sit at my computer and what else is there when you have dinosaur dialup.
15. It’s a way I treat myself…see, food doesn’t sass!!
What are some tools I can use when I myself in this realm of FOOD?
1. I Don’t KNOW!!
Tuesday after Weight Watchers I sat in the car listing things that have made me crabby, and have made me eat.
1. Lots to do before Thanksgiving
2. Not being Organized about the food I am going to prepare
3. People are being Lazy at my house
4. I haven’t been tracking or journaling
5. I need to inquire of the Lord where my place in life is at this time, concerning ME
6. I am in pain some days.
7. I’m over goal weight and paying a monthly fee AGAIN
8. I need to clean out my body of sugar.
9. I need to forgive myself for freaking out when K.C. cut her hair. I could have handled it better.
10. Someone was mean to me. (potential customer hung up on me, told me I was unprofessional just because I called her hun.)
11. I have NO quiet time
12. I haven’t been getting enough rest since the time change. My body says its 10:00 but with everything that needs done I’m not getting to bed until after 11:00, and I get pestered after that.
13. I have a hard time recognizing Ron after he “Just For Men” his grey hair, now he looks like ELVIS. I know I should be ecstatic, but it’s a little strange trying to make out with a dead guy. I do have to say though. I think I lost 2 pounds laughing hestarically, I got an 8 minute ab workout.
If I look close enough, and if I read my Weight Watcher books I will find some tools. My inner resources.
1. I can say my computer desk is OFF LIMITS to food
2. I can type on my laptop instead of eating
3. I can call a friend
4. I can duct tape my mouth shut
5. I can pretend everything in the house is poisonous. Don’t EAT
6. I can take a deep breath and exale.
I believe that food is just one of my weaknesses. So next time I will share what I learned at Time Out For Women. NOTE TO SELF.
Keep your eye on the goal
I was at weight watchers last night and this quote was up on the board, which I thought was very appropriate for the feelings that I was having yesterday while blogging. It was a quote from Tom Landry who used to be the Dallas Cowboys coach
“Setting a goal is not the main thing. It is deciding how you will go about achieving it and staying with that plan.”
I sat there and listened to all the ladies trying to figure out what the plan is in their life. I love having plans. What I don’t like is when things get in the way of my plans and then I tend to freak out or get discouraged. Our leader likened what we were talking about to a football team/game.
She had these things listed on the board.
1. Individual success starts in the huddle (meaning meetings)
2. You have to stick with a plan.
3. We ALL fumble.
4. Keep your eye on the goal.
5. Believe in your abilities and never quit.
We talked about using our inner resources to continue on the plan. These are things that we have that don’t cost money. Things that are in us already, or we want to find in ourselves.
Some of the resources that were mentioned were
1. Calmness
2. Determination
3. Humor
4. Forgiveness
5. Knowledge
6. Perserverance
7. Discipline
8. Love
9. Kindness
10. Persista nce
11. Organization skills
Now 1-5 were named at the meeting, I came up with the rest. The ones I have used over the past 6 years .
I want to look over that list and see which one I want to work on this week. I think its calmness.
What can I do to remain calm in a food situation? Our leader suggested that what works for her is have a rubberband around her wrist. When she finds her self stressed she grabs the rubberband and holds it and takes a deep breath. That breath relaxes her and gets oxygen to her brain, and then she is better able to think. Maybe I need to get one of those rubber/bands like CTR, or Return with Honor and then when I find myself breathing too heavy I can grab it and remind myself to get oxygen to the brain and that will soften my heart so that I am better able to LISTEN to what I need to do. I find myself OVER reacting instead of acting. Its easier for me to see that other people do that and not myself.
Anchoring…What is my ultimate goal with eating right?
I need to work for Weight Watchers. I need to help people. I need to be needed.
My game plan.
1. TRACK my foods. I need to find a special pen and get a new tracker, I have 2 weeks left on the one I’m using, and I want to remain calm, and so if I have 2 or 3 on hand, I can calm down.
2. Shop for better foods. I want to have treats in the house, its only “fair” so I will just fix those treats for FHE.
3. Get me a new Water Mug. Colorful, can’t miss if its hiding.
4. Put my vitamin bottle in plain sight.
5. Buy the fruits and veggies and have them cut up and ready to go (veggies, with fruits I’ll have them on the counter in a cool basket and not my bread basket)
6. Don’t have a lot of quick foods available unless they are low fat.
Let’s see how this plays out for the week.
“Setting a goal is not the main thing. It is deciding how you will go about achieving it and staying with that plan.”
I sat there and listened to all the ladies trying to figure out what the plan is in their life. I love having plans. What I don’t like is when things get in the way of my plans and then I tend to freak out or get discouraged. Our leader likened what we were talking about to a football team/game.
She had these things listed on the board.
1. Individual success starts in the huddle (meaning meetings)
2. You have to stick with a plan.
3. We ALL fumble.
4. Keep your eye on the goal.
5. Believe in your abilities and never quit.
We talked about using our inner resources to continue on the plan. These are things that we have that don’t cost money. Things that are in us already, or we want to find in ourselves.
Some of the resources that were mentioned were
1. Calmness
2. Determination
3. Humor
4. Forgiveness
5. Knowledge
6. Perserverance
7. Discipline
8. Love
9. Kindness
10. Persista nce
11. Organization skills
Now 1-5 were named at the meeting, I came up with the rest. The ones I have used over the past 6 years .
I want to look over that list and see which one I want to work on this week. I think its calmness.
What can I do to remain calm in a food situation? Our leader suggested that what works for her is have a rubberband around her wrist. When she finds her self stressed she grabs the rubberband and holds it and takes a deep breath. That breath relaxes her and gets oxygen to her brain, and then she is better able to think. Maybe I need to get one of those rubber/bands like CTR, or Return with Honor and then when I find myself breathing too heavy I can grab it and remind myself to get oxygen to the brain and that will soften my heart so that I am better able to LISTEN to what I need to do. I find myself OVER reacting instead of acting. Its easier for me to see that other people do that and not myself.
Anchoring…What is my ultimate goal with eating right?
I need to work for Weight Watchers. I need to help people. I need to be needed.
My game plan.
1. TRACK my foods. I need to find a special pen and get a new tracker, I have 2 weeks left on the one I’m using, and I want to remain calm, and so if I have 2 or 3 on hand, I can calm down.
2. Shop for better foods. I want to have treats in the house, its only “fair” so I will just fix those treats for FHE.
3. Get me a new Water Mug. Colorful, can’t miss if its hiding.
4. Put my vitamin bottle in plain sight.
5. Buy the fruits and veggies and have them cut up and ready to go (veggies, with fruits I’ll have them on the counter in a cool basket and not my bread basket)
6. Don’t have a lot of quick foods available unless they are low fat.
Let’s see how this plays out for the week.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Do the Best We Can
"An eternal principle is revealed in holy writ: "It is not requisite that a man run faster than he has strength. And again it is expedient that he should be diligent, that thereby he may win the prize. " (Mosiah 4:27) We don't have to be fast; we simply have to be steady and move in the right direction. We have to do the best we can, one step after another.
--Elder Joseph B Wirthlin. Ensign Nov. 2001, 25
I find myself struggling with the steady and moving in the right direction. In the food department. There is nothing more frustrating then knowing what you should eat and still choosing not to eat it. Be it one reason or another.
You would think after 6 1/2 years of Weight Watchers I would make it a total lifestlye change. I lose sight of the goals that I should have. So here are the goals that made me start weight watchers
1. I wanted to get rid of the double chin
2. I wanted to be healthy
3. I wanted to learn how to eat right.
4. I wanted to teach my family how to eat right so they wouldn't struggle like I had.
5. I wanted to be THIN...finally
6. I wanted to wear cute clothes
7. I wanted to eventually work for Weight Watchers and help others in their struggle
8. I wanted to wear a size 10
9. I wanted to learn how to enjoy exercise.
10. I wanted Ron to love my body
11. I didn't want to be the FAT mom at school functions
12. I didn't want to feel like I was hiding from anyone or anything.
13. I wanted to feel comfortable around people.
14. I wanted more self esteem
15. I wanted to set an example to all those around me
16. I wanted CONTROL!!
as I read over this list, I have done pretty good at most of them. the final one is the major one I am losing ground with. I find that I have no control over much of anything.
I have a husband who actually has a mind of his own and a lot of times it doesn't include me.
I have an 18 year old who wants to spread her own wings and I have no right to "clip" them.
I have a 14 year old who is thinking her mother is stupid in this point of her life
I have a 10 year old son whose head is in video games and friends.
I have a 3 year old who you tell 10 times NOT to do something and she DOES it any ways.
So there you have no control. Messes everywhere, the food preferences are different, and life is crazy most times.
I felt my life spinning out of control when the final straw was when my best friend quit speaking to me. I fell to my knees and said. Father in Heaven...you see all the things that are out of control in my life. You know everything, you see everything, you know me. You know the struggles I had as a child with NO CONTROL. Is there anything in my life NOW that I CAN control?
He whispered to me. Shanon, you can control What goes IN your mouth, and What comes OUT of your mouth.
What a relief. So I have two things that I can have control over and I still find myself overwhelmed with just those two tasks.
so that will be part of my journey in this life I guess. This is one of the main reasons why I'm doing this blog. To see if writing about my journey will help me with this journey.
--Elder Joseph B Wirthlin. Ensign Nov. 2001, 25
I find myself struggling with the steady and moving in the right direction. In the food department. There is nothing more frustrating then knowing what you should eat and still choosing not to eat it. Be it one reason or another.
You would think after 6 1/2 years of Weight Watchers I would make it a total lifestlye change. I lose sight of the goals that I should have. So here are the goals that made me start weight watchers
1. I wanted to get rid of the double chin
2. I wanted to be healthy
3. I wanted to learn how to eat right.
4. I wanted to teach my family how to eat right so they wouldn't struggle like I had.
5. I wanted to be THIN...finally
6. I wanted to wear cute clothes
7. I wanted to eventually work for Weight Watchers and help others in their struggle
8. I wanted to wear a size 10
9. I wanted to learn how to enjoy exercise.
10. I wanted Ron to love my body
11. I didn't want to be the FAT mom at school functions
12. I didn't want to feel like I was hiding from anyone or anything.
13. I wanted to feel comfortable around people.
14. I wanted more self esteem
15. I wanted to set an example to all those around me
16. I wanted CONTROL!!
as I read over this list, I have done pretty good at most of them. the final one is the major one I am losing ground with. I find that I have no control over much of anything.
I have a husband who actually has a mind of his own and a lot of times it doesn't include me.
I have an 18 year old who wants to spread her own wings and I have no right to "clip" them.
I have a 14 year old who is thinking her mother is stupid in this point of her life
I have a 10 year old son whose head is in video games and friends.
I have a 3 year old who you tell 10 times NOT to do something and she DOES it any ways.
So there you have no control. Messes everywhere, the food preferences are different, and life is crazy most times.
I felt my life spinning out of control when the final straw was when my best friend quit speaking to me. I fell to my knees and said. Father in Heaven...you see all the things that are out of control in my life. You know everything, you see everything, you know me. You know the struggles I had as a child with NO CONTROL. Is there anything in my life NOW that I CAN control?
He whispered to me. Shanon, you can control What goes IN your mouth, and What comes OUT of your mouth.
What a relief. So I have two things that I can have control over and I still find myself overwhelmed with just those two tasks.
so that will be part of my journey in this life I guess. This is one of the main reasons why I'm doing this blog. To see if writing about my journey will help me with this journey.
Monday, November 10, 2008
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