Just when I think I am OVER what People think of ME, self doubt looms its ugly head again.
My friend told me the other day that I used to intimidate her. I come to church looking so nice, and I carry myself so upright that I truly frightened her. I assured her that if you talk to me more than 5 minutes I'm the biggest L word. If you look under my bangs you will see what I mean.
I have reflected that "message" over and over in my head for the past few days. I feel I have been told that so many times that I feel like I'm leaning towards the DORKY side a little too much, Like I'm trying TOO hard to fit in. I turned 40 3 years ago. I liked who I was finally. That seems to be the time that I have heard this statement OVER AND OVER AGAIN......"Shanon, you intimidate people", or "wow, you are not what I thought you were", or "You are different at home then you are at church" That one, I had an answer for, I'm supposed to be reverent and conservative at church, its the Lords house.
I just have to think that Satan is using this tool to distract me. I have found that I have wanted to retract my whole body from the WORLD, even church things. FOR FEAR I MAY INTIMIDATE. haha! This is where I take a deep breath and try to live the best that I can.
I am TOO honest
I am POISED in most situations
I am Opinionated
I am Listening
I am BOLD
I am BRAVE
I am ME
I am Who I believe Heavenly Father NEEDS me to be
I am A good MOM
I am a Good WIFE
I am a good Daycare Provider
I am a good House keeper
I am a good Worker
I am a good Sister
I am a Good Daughter
I am Who I am!
I Am the BEST that I can Be TODAY
i am who I am because GOD LOVES ME
I will be OKAY whether YOU like me or NOT.......I do what I do because its ALL I know, and I try to hear what God needs from me.