I said that to Chris's Aunt Jacquie when she said she would bring me some Canadian candy in person when she comes.
I think she was offended by that comment, because she said.....Shanon, I'm not sure how to take that comment, please explain.
I had been interrupted by Karrea several times, and I was distracted. I apologized for being distracted and said I'm already fat, but yet candy sounds good.
.....being "bitter-sweet" You love it, but hate it!
I pondered why Jacquie might have been thinking. I never in a million years would think the comment I made would be offensive. What was her spirit thinking?
The thought (impression from God) came to me. She may have taken it wrong because YOU should be Adrienne's temple Escort, not her.
I knew Chris's aunts and cousins were going to Grand Junction for Evans Graduation, I mentioned to a few if they could bring me some Canadian candies. Sweetarts and chocolates are different over there then they are here. Very interesting.
I didn't get to see anyone in Grand Junction because of the rudeness/hurtful feelings I had with Chris and Adrienne. (remember I wanted to go to grand junction and Chris told me "they didn't want me to go". I wrote to Adrienne and told her that because of my hurt feelings I didn't know if I could "pray" in the temple with them.
I was informed by Chris's dad that with my angry bitter feelings maybe I wasn't worthy to enter the temple. his comment caused Adrienne to "pray" about who her escort should be, since her mother wasn't worthy to be there. Her answer was Jacquie. When she told me that I tried to be a big girl and suck it up and act like it was no big deal. She is a big girl, she can govern herself.
But it stings. I never said I was angry or bitter or unworthy to attend the temple. I simply said I was hurt. Who goes to the temple hurt? Most of us do, several times over the years. That is where we go for peace!
I should be sitting next to Adrienne as she receives her blessings in the temple.
I guess I'll sit on the back row and pretend I'm good! and cry like a baby.
I don't know what else to do.
It will be a "bitter sweet" day. Don't you think?