Tuesday, June 9, 2009

I learned...

that if you wait on a thought, it stays on that day.

JK. I started Randomness on June 3, its the 9th, but when I went to "publish it" it went down to June 3rd.

silly me!!!

now I know!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

What is the purpose of US..MORMONS

Last Tuesday was a crazy busy day. We had 3 appointments for the day. (carpet cleaning)
The first house we got to added a couch for us to clean! YAY! more money! With that it put us a few minutes behind. Our next appointment really wanted us in the afternoon and not the evening so I did some switching around.

We headed for Hastings at 1:00pm. Got to our next appointment and she was amazed at our work. She put her hand on my shoulder and said..."Would you please do the two bedrooms and hall, I'm sorry, I didn't know you were going to be this good. I would hate to have the new renters not have clean fresh carpet. I am sorry I doubted your abilities." I looked at her and I said...I told you we were good, and then I chuckled!

With that we got more money traveling to Hastings instead of the 59.95 (that is what we charge for one room, every room after that is 24.95). Plus she added two chairs. That put us behind in time. I called our third and final appointment. He was a gentleman and was very understanding. He was flirting with me, and I back. I'm too nice!

Ron hit me in the arm and told me I was leading a man on. I knew by his voice he was an older man. Maybe in his 70's. I had asked him if he had a hot date tonight that our tardiness was going to keep him from it. He said, Not unless you'll go out with me. I said, You don't even know what I look like, you better check me out first! HARMLESS???

We got to Wayne's house. Small 1 bedroom apartment. I charged him 59.95 even tho we cleaned the kitchen, living room, enzymed it, and the entry way. (He had rolled over his "bag" with his scooter, he needed us).

While Ron was working Wayne apologized for flirting with me. I rubbed his shoulder and told him it was FINE. That is who I am (he heard Ron commenting while we were talking on the phone, and heard that he hit me in the arm)

He started to cry. He was just so lonely! My heart sank for him. I spent the rest of the time that Ron cleaned talking with Wayne in his room, the only room that was tile, he was watching tv.

I guess through my kindness he felt impressed to ask what religion I was. We had talked about almost everything else, my kids, my dad owning Heaven's Best years ago, etc.

I told him I belonged to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. He had heard of us. Remembered seeing the missionaries walk by his house on several occasions. Where he lives there is NO SOLICITING so he hadn't been approached. He did say they were welcome to come and visit anytime.

He thanked us over and over again for coming so late and fitting him in regardless of our schedule and doing such a great job. I told him to call us any time he needed us to clean. (I thought without charge, cuz that is who I am)

Sunday he called, said he ran over his "bag" again. Ron was kind of upset. He didn't know how much he was going to charge, etc. I told him to go over there and go by the spirit of it all. I had just got some cookies out of the oven so I called Wayne up and asked if he was "allowed" cookies, he said NOPE, BUT I'LL EAT THEM ANYWAY! haha I sent 6 reeses and 6 chocolate chip.

Ron came home put the pads in the washer and I asked...What did you charge? NOTHING! I was very proud of him!

Had the missionaries over for lunch, it was Kava's birthday on monday. We talked about the Bible Belt of Kearney. How Kearney is VERY RELIGIOUS and that its not really the church members at fault of the missionaries. This community has a strong faith in no matter what church they belong too. Don't be hard on yourself.

Tuesday I was set up to go on a team up with the missionaries. Maria spaced us off so we sat and talked about what we could do instead. We visited DeAnna but she was resting (she is pregnant again, her first being less than 2) so we scheduled for a different time. We sat again. I felt impressed to stop by Wayne's. We drove by. I parked and we scooted over to his door...I poked my head in his window, he smiled and waved for us to come in.

We talked. About life, about current events, about the missionaries, about some of our spiritual experiences, and the missionaries gave him Mosiah 1-5 as an assignment.

We left. We all felt good.

9:00 this am I get a call from Wayne. I read what they assigned me but I'm not sure what I'm supposed to get out of it.

I called Elder Pinchak and he wasn't sure either, was just hoping it would answer some of his questions.

I called Wayne back after I glanced over my seminary scriptures (I know they are over 25 years old but I wrote some good notes in there, ha ha) I was able to explain to him the King Benjamin was a prophet, and that his main concern with the "wickedness" of the people is that they forgot who they were/are. NOTHING. Dust is where we came from, dust is where we go. Serving God and not the natural man is the only salvation we have.

We talked for a few minutes and he said....The Elders aren't going to try and baptize me are they? I said...ONLY IF YOU WANT THEM TOO, ahh a!!!!

We are here for serving you and for answering questions that you may be searching for!

That was the best I could do.

He was good with that. Then he ended by saying....come and visit me...oh and can you clone yourself. You are a neat neat lady!

Randomness....for June

Blessed. Got my old friend back on my Visiting Teaching List. YAY! Mourn for others to be on there tho. Feeling good in the Kearney Ward again. I think turning 41 has given me much needed strength. It's like I DON'T CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK....Only What God thinks. I wished I was 40, 20 years ago! haha. I know I have said that a few times this year. I'm sure I'll change my mind once the wrinkles start appearing.

I am grateful for the Business that Ron has. He has grown up a lot. Appreciates his spare time, appreciates all that his family does for him. I wished he would have had this opportunity years ago. MAYBE life would have been happier. I know through our trials tho we have learned different life/eternal skills. Like...you really should listen to each other. It's better to be NICE than RIGHT.

I am grateful for the rain. As we drive to Hastings and back I see the farmers watering the fields. I see the Platte River low. God knows what is needed and is giving it freely?

I am grateful for a good nights Sleep. I had been asking for REST....so I would lay there. My body was at REST, but my eyes and mind were awake. My prayers changed at night. Dear Father, please bless me with a good nights Sleep. Haha! So far it has worked. Haha! I have slept, and rested. I love it!

Marriage! Another one bites the dust. They have been married over 5 years and they gave it up. I didn't know you could get a divorce online for 155.00. Wow! That is only a days work. What is this world coming too? It truly saddens me to think that he wants to be alone the rest of his life. Some days I feel like I want to be, but give me a day by myself, all I do is eat and watch t.v. That is boring! haha! I don't think I would be good totally on my own. Besides, I am reminded I have a good man. (snickers) Thanks Mom, you always did like him BEST! He is still learning how to use his words! HA

I found out what too nice may mean. Flirty! I have been reminded that some people don't like NICE. Someone I know is going through a court ordeal because His NICENESS was taken as harrassment. Which is totally absurd, but its happening in this world today, even if the lady is in her 90's. Personally, I would have taken a NICE comment as a compliment at 90 not a slap in the face...sexual harrassment. SADNESS.

Does absence makes the heart grow fonder?

Life is good. I have calmed down my NICEness, but still choose to be NICE! just not TOO nice! haha!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Thru struggles I find Strength....I think

"We need strong Christians who can persevere against hardship, who can sustain hope through tragedy, who can lift others by their example and their compassion, and who can consistently overcome temptations. We need strong Christians who can make important things happen by their faith and who can defend the truth of Jesus Christ against moral relativism and militant atheism.What is the source of such moral and spiritual power, and how do we obtain it? The source is God. Our access to that power is through our covenants with Him."

--D. Todd Christofferson, "The Power of Covenants",
Ensign, May 2009, 19–23

D&C 97:8-9

Keep the Commandments, Hymn #303

This past weekend was pretty rough for me. I usually have to have it rough in order for me to learn a lesson or two. I'm not quite sure what lesson I (I mean I) have to learn in this.

This weekend I was told I was TOO NICE.

What does that mean?

Sunday morning the Lord said...Prepare to have the missionaries over for lunch. I was in the shower thinking of things I could "whip up". Got to church and was approached by the missionaries...Sister Matson, we don't have a lunch appt. can we come over? Sure, good thing the Lord talks to me. (I got this look of...YOU ARE STRANGE SISTER MATSON)

Got home, fixed up some enchilada bake, got the chips and salsa out and left over burritos we had from Friday night from having them over. (there were 4 missionaries, 5 daycare kids, 2 investigators, and our family of 6).

I signed up for them for Memorial Day. Had it all planned out. Hamburgers, hot dogs, chicken, potato salad, macaroni salad, strawberry fluff, root beer floats, buns, chips, pop, ice cream, etc. While at Walmart in the morning I asked Elder Kavapolu what his favorite dessert was and he said cheesecake. I picked up a variety pack in the bakery. I picked up some cereal for the guys too. I over heard them talking about what kind they liked. (one of the missionaries is saving the points to get a flash drive)

Saturday I also picked up a guitar at Target. Elder Shulz is a country singer and I had to have him play for us. I also picked up a volleyball/badminton set so we would have something to do in our yard besides play tiddlywinks!

When I bought the guitar Ron asked me why I did that. I said I bought it for Elder Shulz. He hit the roof. HOW DARE YOU SPEND THAT KIND OF MONEY ON A MISSIONARY!!??

I said, calm down, I was just kidding. I bought it for all of us!

Elder Shulz did entertain us for a little bit. (be still my heart! haha)

While Adrienne was tuning it saturday night she wrote a song. She asked Shai to come up with some lyrics and Voila...they have their first HIT. They practiced it and performed it in front of everyone Monday.

I got home from the store on monday and that is when the subject of me being TOO NICE came up. "it doesn't look right! you are too nice to the missionaries."

I was crushed. I sat in the bathroom and cried. I thought to myself...WHAT DOES THAT MEAN)

30 seconds went by as I sat on the floor sobbing in my bath towel so noone could hear me. All of sudden I heard the ring tone. Elder Pincaks and Myricks ring tone is chipmunks passing gas, coughing and laughing) It brought a smile to my face. I really needed that! (I didn't know if I should answer it, what would I say?)

I answered. He asked if I was okay. 'NOPE' . "Is there anything we can do"..'NOPE'..."do you want us to come over now?" 'NOPE... I need to talk to Heavenly Father and see what he needs me to do.' I haven't really talked with Heavenly Father about it. I'm really quite shocked still. A thought did come to my mind. "YOU should be flattered that Ron would be so jealous of 4 BOYS!"

[Ron was so sick on Thursday that he couldn't do the jobs in Hastings. I volunteered to do them for him. I do things for him without payment... Or expectation. Its not like I don't do things for HIM specifically, so why he would be jealous...I don't know. ]

It has bothered me. He has apologized, but I'm still terribly bothered by it. I don't even want him to look at me, I'm so annoyed.

Don't we sit in the house of the Lord and make promises to do all that we can to build up His kingdom? Doesn't that mean feeding his sheep (literally even).

I still tear up at the thought that I would be condemned for being TOO NICE!

I sit here and struggle with.......What does that mean?