Tuesday, February 10, 2009

A phone call

I got a phone call on Sunday from one of the Bishopric. I had been on his mind. Was there anything I needed?

I had been feeling very un-needed. I remember reading something in a book, I was thinking it was in "Extremes" but can't find it now, that said "Feeling Un-used" isn't NOT the thing to do. That we are to have faith that God has us where we are supposed to be.

Why do I have those feelings?

I was in a Ward visiting on Sunday (with my Stake Primary Calling) and most of the people sustained were having 3 and 4 "jobs".

There went my feelings of I'm not being needed in the Kearney Ward again. I hate that.

My mind has been muttered and tossed and turned. I don't see around the corner. I don't know what the Lord has in store for me. I know what happens when I tell the Lord I'm bored! ha ha. I believe that is how Karrea came about. (don't worry, I won't share details, ha ha)

I have one month before the baby comes. I won't be bored then.

As the bishopric member asked me if I was okay, I took a second to "check" myself out. Hey, I'm doing great. I could honestly tell him that. "how are you doing personally?" (like I would answer him in a room full of my family, ha ha) I checked myself over again and I could honestly say I was doing great.

He was puzzled as to why the "spirit" prompted him to call me. I just spilled it. I told him what I had been feeling. He chuckled and named a few spots that needed to be filled. I told him I was always willing. I have NEVER complained about a calling persay....I have voiced my opinions on the way it might be ran and maybe that is why I stand without Helping in the Kearney Ward.

I am still trying to figure out what is going on.

Don't get me wrong, I love being in the Stake. I love to travel around and meet people (we have a 1000 mile radius that we travel) I love the people I travel with. Such a blessing. When I was in the Stake YW I was happily busy doing doing doing. In the Stake Primary, its a little different. I get to travel around and sit in an hour meeting and getting the Presidency's ideas and concerns and then we go to primary and we sit and watch kids eat thier boogers. HA HA!! That is a highlight of the day! I truly do love it. I don't mean that to be rude. It really is funny and I find that me and the 2nd Counselor both enjoy the scene. Ha ha!

I love the Lord. I love to Work. I love to Serve. I just hope its not MY pride, or the pride of the natural man that keeps me from being where I'm supposed to be in this life and in this ward.

Maybe I'm just supposed to be a floater so I can help all around. I think its funny when I hear Pam say...but you are too busy to help. Please. Live my life. I'll be the first to tell you if I can't help. I don't think it's fair to assume people are TOO busy, and I don't think its right to assume we are NOT too busy to help because you are AT HOME, or Single.

I think the KEY to this is communication. Honest, Balanced, True communication. Let the spirit guide!

If you have a prompting to ask someone to help. Let them be the judge if they can do it or not. I hope I can practice what I preach.


duh, it's me :) said...

"I have one month before the baby comes. I won't be bored then." How on earth did i miss that?!?!

Amy G said...

That's what I just saw too - are you going to have a baby Shay?