Confession Time
Last week we took JD's Grand Am to Grand Island for my Nephew. He was needing a different car. We also had to pick up Karrea from my mom and dads place. (Grandma took KC to the Nebraska State Fair to see the Draft Horse Show!)
We got to Russell's house before Shell and Russ arrived. It was sodie time. When Russ walked into his home he came over to me, gave me a hug, and said "Dang Shay, you look really good!"
I have to tell you it made my day! For a second! (hear the big sigh!)
A little voice said 'if he only knew!'
You see, since I have started writing my book I have taken up a comforting habit. Cinnamon popcorn! Yep!
It all started when Ron bought a bag of VIC's caramel corn. Then he picked up a bag of Cinnamon Popcorn. The afternoon snack turned into a compulsion when I got to the chapter in my book about visiting VICS popcorn on a regular basis with "Toby". He would let me pick out any flavor I wanted. It was always "too expensive" for my family to buy, but "Toby" loved to treat me! I was finding myself back into that "feeling" of being treated! Each kernel was crisp, spicy, but sweet! Just like the time I was with "Toby"! Just thinking about it, and tattling on myself makes me cry!
I have taught many folks that you need to get to the root of why you are overweight! You need to figure out what and why that food may trigger you. I found a new trigger food. As "EJ" would say..."a fire starter"
I have gained a few extra comfort pounds! But I also say to the members that "comfort food" is an oxymoron. "Comfort food" is NOT comfortable! To be truly comfortable it takes nutritional macronutrients, like Protein, and Produce, and a Healthy carb!
Russell, I appreciate your kind words to me! I really did make my day. I know that an extra 4 pounds doesn't make a huge difference to some people, but to me it does. It could mean JOB or NO JOB! It was the kick start I needed to figure out how to fix this "WHAT AND WHY" I have been struggling to work through.
I have talked to "Toby" earlier this year. Like any other relationship I have been in, I have mostly remembered the good things. This particular guy, I just have to have faith that God knew what He was doing when I broke it off. The first time I heard Garth Brooks song "Unanswered Prayer" I bawled like a baby! I was married and I was trying really hard not to struggle by my past. Its different when you have had someone else's child though. Deep breathe!
I am here to say that I have been clean for 5 days. I have had no cravings. I even have a bag of Cinnamon popcorn in my office. The end date is in October, so I have time! HA.
It feels good to be clean eating again! It only took me three days! I encourage everyone to just pull up your boot straps and give yourself 3 days of healthy eating! By then you will have built up your success mechanism.
WE can DO THIS!
Thursday, August 31, 2017
Saturday, August 5, 2017
I sit in my 2007 Ford Mustang and enjoy the breeze, and the sun peeking in! It was raining earlier. Julie, LeAnne and myself were practically running to our cars after the Weight Watcher meeting. We had 47 members today. 43 members stayed and supported each other; gave one another ideas of how to get their fruits and veggies in.
I was the green bean and corn girl. "Tomatoes make you sterile" was a message I received from my college boyfriend Jim. Mushrooms are fungus! Onions are slimy. Cucumbers get bitter. Celery gets stuck in my teeth. Carrots make your lips orange. Green peppers haunt me all day. Remind me over mom's stuffed peppers and the years I would throw up on them because my gag reflux worked on DEMAND.
Blanche, bless her heart, was my Weight Watcher leader. I would boo hoo to her when the scale didn't move in the right direction. She not only had her weight to worry about but I made her worry about mine too. It took my broken heart to be able to soak up her counsel in the cracks. When I was doing good, I didn't need to listen. I needed to talk. When I did "bad" I was super quiet in the group and that is when the lessons soaked in deeper than before.
Blanche had done the program about 20 years by the time I tip toed into the weight watcher meeting at St. James Square. I looked up to her, even though she is only about 4'11 or possibly 5'0. She was the grandma I didn't have. She took me aside and suggested that I broaden the horizons on 0 Pt foods. What?? Veggies? I do. I eat 1 or 2 cans of green beans a day. Iceburg lettuce and I are friends with about 1/4 cup of homemade ranch dressing. Blanche, if you tell me I can't have ranch I will walk out this door and you will NEVER SEE ME! She assured me I could in moderation, and make my own, just thin it up a bit. Now I use 1 1/4 cup Fairlife skim (2SP per 8oz...13grms protein and 8 sugars instead of skim milk 13 sugars 8 proteins), 3/4 Cup Real Hellman's Mayo, and 3 Tbls Ranch dry (sometimes the fiesta ranch dry) and voila! 2 SP per serving.
I took her advice. I started putting veggies on my Subway sandwich. I mean anything with bread and cheese is doable. Here was my foot long turkey: wheat, cucumbers, tomatoes, red onion, pickles, banana peppers, black olives, extra lettuce, and SPINACH leaves! eeekkk!! don't forget provolone cheese with ranch! YAY! It was basically a 20 Pt sandwich. I had them to use. I only ate a cup of oatmeal for breakfast! or maybe a bagel with some FF cream cheese.
Boy...have I learned so much more than that! I suffered. I plateaud forever. I even gained, and was totally frustrated. I wasn't doing anyone any favors. BUT I DID try new veggies. Now with Smart points fruit is also 0 pts. I do find myself grabbing more and more fruits and veggies these days. That is a key to a Healthy BMI for the rest of your life! One of the routines we learned in WW 360 was to have produce with every meal and snack. I teach that now! Why? Because its essential, and its a real struggle for most people.
Produce with every meal and snack= SATIETY, VITAMINS, MINERALS, PHYTONUTRIENTS, FIBER, FILLING, ENERGY, LOVE! When you blend your fruits and veggies you lose the Fiber:Soluble and Insoluble. You will get nutrition, and sugar. Our bodies need to chew! If you do choose to blend, you have to count the fruits and veggies into your Smart Points and if you are simply filling, you have to take them out of your weeklies. I'm just the messenger!
Come and visit more often and I will give you some more Holistic Self Care ideas. Mind:Body:Spirt!
I was the green bean and corn girl. "Tomatoes make you sterile" was a message I received from my college boyfriend Jim. Mushrooms are fungus! Onions are slimy. Cucumbers get bitter. Celery gets stuck in my teeth. Carrots make your lips orange. Green peppers haunt me all day. Remind me over mom's stuffed peppers and the years I would throw up on them because my gag reflux worked on DEMAND.
Blanche, bless her heart, was my Weight Watcher leader. I would boo hoo to her when the scale didn't move in the right direction. She not only had her weight to worry about but I made her worry about mine too. It took my broken heart to be able to soak up her counsel in the cracks. When I was doing good, I didn't need to listen. I needed to talk. When I did "bad" I was super quiet in the group and that is when the lessons soaked in deeper than before.
Blanche had done the program about 20 years by the time I tip toed into the weight watcher meeting at St. James Square. I looked up to her, even though she is only about 4'11 or possibly 5'0. She was the grandma I didn't have. She took me aside and suggested that I broaden the horizons on 0 Pt foods. What?? Veggies? I do. I eat 1 or 2 cans of green beans a day. Iceburg lettuce and I are friends with about 1/4 cup of homemade ranch dressing. Blanche, if you tell me I can't have ranch I will walk out this door and you will NEVER SEE ME! She assured me I could in moderation, and make my own, just thin it up a bit. Now I use 1 1/4 cup Fairlife skim (2SP per 8oz...13grms protein and 8 sugars instead of skim milk 13 sugars 8 proteins), 3/4 Cup Real Hellman's Mayo, and 3 Tbls Ranch dry (sometimes the fiesta ranch dry) and voila! 2 SP per serving.
I took her advice. I started putting veggies on my Subway sandwich. I mean anything with bread and cheese is doable. Here was my foot long turkey: wheat, cucumbers, tomatoes, red onion, pickles, banana peppers, black olives, extra lettuce, and SPINACH leaves! eeekkk!! don't forget provolone cheese with ranch! YAY! It was basically a 20 Pt sandwich. I had them to use. I only ate a cup of oatmeal for breakfast! or maybe a bagel with some FF cream cheese.
Boy...have I learned so much more than that! I suffered. I plateaud forever. I even gained, and was totally frustrated. I wasn't doing anyone any favors. BUT I DID try new veggies. Now with Smart points fruit is also 0 pts. I do find myself grabbing more and more fruits and veggies these days. That is a key to a Healthy BMI for the rest of your life! One of the routines we learned in WW 360 was to have produce with every meal and snack. I teach that now! Why? Because its essential, and its a real struggle for most people.
Produce with every meal and snack= SATIETY, VITAMINS, MINERALS, PHYTONUTRIENTS, FIBER, FILLING, ENERGY, LOVE! When you blend your fruits and veggies you lose the Fiber:Soluble and Insoluble. You will get nutrition, and sugar. Our bodies need to chew! If you do choose to blend, you have to count the fruits and veggies into your Smart Points and if you are simply filling, you have to take them out of your weeklies. I'm just the messenger!
Come and visit more often and I will give you some more Holistic Self Care ideas. Mind:Body:Spirt!
Thursday, August 23, 2012
I have to tell you that life sure does throw you curve balls that hit you right in the guts!!! My first reaction with the gut buster is to crawl up into the fetal position and suck my thumb. (Yes, I have done this a couple of times during my adult life).
This last gut buster was exhausting and I could feel that "despair" come on and I just fell to my knees and said God PLEASE SPEAK TO ME. You know my personality, you know why Satan is doing this, so please, I'm asking for your wisdom. What should I do?
I crawled into bed with tears streaming down my face. I turned the old Iphone to the Lds scriptures. I said to Ron, what I said in my prayers and he showed me a scripture. Oddly enough I was on the same verse in my reading. I read the chapter 4 times but couldn't quite get what the Lord would be telling me. It was about Mosiah telling the people they really didn't want a KING and the disadvantages of that tradition.
I didn't settle for that. I said OKAY GOD, I'll get my paper scriptures out. I have a military Book Of Mormon that is on the bed stand. I took the gum wrapper out of it, Pressed it together tightly to keep that particular page from opening, KWIM? and Said.....Please talk to me God.
The scripture opened to Alma Chapter 17. Be of Good Comfort.
I slept very soundly that night (after I finally fell asleep) and for that I'm grateful. Have I told you lately that God is Good? Well, He is. God Speaks, Do You Listen? If you feel like God doesn't hear you? then you are not listening. He answers our prayers in several ways 1. Scripture reading. 2. In your heart 3. Audible in your ear as if he were standing right there. 4. Pictures in your mind 5. By a true friend 6. an impression to read an article, and so on. Be aware of those things that God shares with you, and he will continue to share with you. If you ignore him, he will not bless you with his time. Parents know what I'm talking about.
Have a blessed Friday!!
This last gut buster was exhausting and I could feel that "despair" come on and I just fell to my knees and said God PLEASE SPEAK TO ME. You know my personality, you know why Satan is doing this, so please, I'm asking for your wisdom. What should I do?
I crawled into bed with tears streaming down my face. I turned the old Iphone to the Lds scriptures. I said to Ron, what I said in my prayers and he showed me a scripture. Oddly enough I was on the same verse in my reading. I read the chapter 4 times but couldn't quite get what the Lord would be telling me. It was about Mosiah telling the people they really didn't want a KING and the disadvantages of that tradition.
I didn't settle for that. I said OKAY GOD, I'll get my paper scriptures out. I have a military Book Of Mormon that is on the bed stand. I took the gum wrapper out of it, Pressed it together tightly to keep that particular page from opening, KWIM? and Said.....Please talk to me God.
The scripture opened to Alma Chapter 17. Be of Good Comfort.
I slept very soundly that night (after I finally fell asleep) and for that I'm grateful. Have I told you lately that God is Good? Well, He is. God Speaks, Do You Listen? If you feel like God doesn't hear you? then you are not listening. He answers our prayers in several ways 1. Scripture reading. 2. In your heart 3. Audible in your ear as if he were standing right there. 4. Pictures in your mind 5. By a true friend 6. an impression to read an article, and so on. Be aware of those things that God shares with you, and he will continue to share with you. If you ignore him, he will not bless you with his time. Parents know what I'm talking about.
Have a blessed Friday!!
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
I have really missed blogging, or journaling. I may just have to play catch up. I read over my last post in march and well, quite frankly it was the calm before the storm, so to speak.
A lot has happened since that last post.
I have been on an emotional roller coaster. Lets see.......what has happened in the past 5 months.
Adrienne, Chris and Q-man came to visit. The stay wasn't as long as I wanted it to be, but beggars can't be choosy.
Shai graduated High School. Fun time at our house. She had friends and family and ice cream and cookies. Who wouldn't enjoy that combo?
Justice and Karrea got out of school, and the fun, and fighting began!!
I quit my job at the hospital. The greatest news in MY personal life. Toughest decision to make though. Money talks. I haven't regretted it YET.
Started working For Ron with Heaven's Best carpet cleaning and subbing a lot for weight watchers. Doing some extra training on the computers in Grand Island and Hastings.
Got my temple recommend taken away. That took some soul searching.
What else has happened since March?
My brother Roger got remarried, again. He seems happy this time.
His daughter Miranda moved in with him. They seem happy. Its a foreign place, I hope she gives God a chance.
Russell, Shel and Lucas are living in Nebraska.
Lyle is back in Nebraska.
Its amazing what five months can do for someone.
I have been enjoying my calling in the young women's. Amazing young ladies who teach me a lot of different things and I get to share some deep experiences with them, and I hope the feel the spirit as I love and teach them.
This Friday Shai moves into her college dorm, and she has her first big concert at Harmon park. I'm so excited for her. I'll be sure and sit in the back row because usually when she sings I cry and if she sees me crying she starts to choke up. So I'll just sob in the pine trees, or over by the water fountain! that is a special place. when i was little I used to since and dance on that stage! GO SHAI!!! If i had the money I would support you 100 percent.
Justice has a car now. Ron bought him a 1994 Pontiac Firebird. Its teal and they are bonding! I'm happy for him. He has learned its hard work, and it takes cold hard cash to get something up to par.
Karrea is getting ready for school, and I'm excited for the new year. I hope she has a great time.
Justice will be a freshman which means he will be attending seminary. I hope he learns what the Lord has in store for him.
We have attending youth conference, and we have enjoyed the hot weather and now the cool weather of Nebraska. God has truly been good to us.
WE have had our struggles, but prayers have been answered, and I got my temple recommend back and I believe I'm on the road to healing.
It feels good to write. Hopefully I won't stay away too long next time.
Happy August!!!
A lot has happened since that last post.
I have been on an emotional roller coaster. Lets see.......what has happened in the past 5 months.
Adrienne, Chris and Q-man came to visit. The stay wasn't as long as I wanted it to be, but beggars can't be choosy.
Shai graduated High School. Fun time at our house. She had friends and family and ice cream and cookies. Who wouldn't enjoy that combo?
Justice and Karrea got out of school, and the fun, and fighting began!!
I quit my job at the hospital. The greatest news in MY personal life. Toughest decision to make though. Money talks. I haven't regretted it YET.
Started working For Ron with Heaven's Best carpet cleaning and subbing a lot for weight watchers. Doing some extra training on the computers in Grand Island and Hastings.
Got my temple recommend taken away. That took some soul searching.
What else has happened since March?
My brother Roger got remarried, again. He seems happy this time.
His daughter Miranda moved in with him. They seem happy. Its a foreign place, I hope she gives God a chance.
Russell, Shel and Lucas are living in Nebraska.
Lyle is back in Nebraska.
Its amazing what five months can do for someone.
I have been enjoying my calling in the young women's. Amazing young ladies who teach me a lot of different things and I get to share some deep experiences with them, and I hope the feel the spirit as I love and teach them.
This Friday Shai moves into her college dorm, and she has her first big concert at Harmon park. I'm so excited for her. I'll be sure and sit in the back row because usually when she sings I cry and if she sees me crying she starts to choke up. So I'll just sob in the pine trees, or over by the water fountain! that is a special place. when i was little I used to since and dance on that stage! GO SHAI!!! If i had the money I would support you 100 percent.
Justice has a car now. Ron bought him a 1994 Pontiac Firebird. Its teal and they are bonding! I'm happy for him. He has learned its hard work, and it takes cold hard cash to get something up to par.
Karrea is getting ready for school, and I'm excited for the new year. I hope she has a great time.
Justice will be a freshman which means he will be attending seminary. I hope he learns what the Lord has in store for him.
We have attending youth conference, and we have enjoyed the hot weather and now the cool weather of Nebraska. God has truly been good to us.
WE have had our struggles, but prayers have been answered, and I got my temple recommend back and I believe I'm on the road to healing.
It feels good to write. Hopefully I won't stay away too long next time.
Happy August!!!
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Thursday at 5:49 I grabbed a folding chair and headed to the front of the Weight Watcher meeting. I could feel my heart pounding out of my chest. My heart was racing, it was starting to hurt to breath. I turned around to the members, took a really deep breath and then sat there in front of them. Looking at them.
'I QUIT. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE. IT IS JUST TOO HARD FOR ME TO DO EVERYTHING THAT EVERYONE ASKS ME TO DO. I HAVE GAINED WAIT, AND I AM JUST FRUSTRATED SO I'M QUITTING.'
"How much have you gained?" asked one member.
'About a pound and a half over weight'.
"Well, we can all come up there and beat the crap out of you, that would help you get to goal!" was her response." LOL!!!
'I can't believe how my heart is racing. Its really hard for me to tell you this.'
Some members had tears in their eyes. "You can't leave us!" "Are you joking?" "This isn't funny!"
I looked at them with all the seriousness I had left and said.............DON'T WE ALL GET THIS WAY! Don't we all just want to give up and Quit!
We have to NIX THE NEGATIVE!
One of the members said I was so good I need to get the Best Actress Award. They truly believed I was walking out!
I feel like doing this to a lot of things in my life. Wait, Truth be told I have wanted to quit everything I have ever done.
I QUIT BEING A MOM. MY KIDS HATE ME ANYWAYS!
I QUIT WORKING AT THE HOSPITAL...I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING NOBODY TRAINED ME AND HEAVEN FOR BIDS I GET A COUPLE PHONE CALLS (from the principal for the 6 year old....AGAIN)
I QUIT GOING TO CHURCH. SO AND SO IS BARKING AT ME AGAIN! (PMS TIME FOR HER)
I QUIT BEING A WIFE, HE DOESN'T SEE TO MY NEEDS WHY SH OULD I GIVE HIM HIS NEEDS
I QUIT BEING A FRIEND, I'M TIRED OF PUTTING 100% AND ONLY RECEIVING 25% BACK
I QUIT DIETIING, I WANT TO EAT SUGAR AND NOT FEEL GUILTY
I QUIT BEING A DAUGHTER BECAUSE DAD IS NICER TO THE DAUGHTER IN LAWS
I QUIT BEING A DAUGHTER IN LAW BECAUSE THEY COULD CARE LESS IF I EXISTED OR NOT. THEY DON'T EVEN BOTHER WITH BIRTHDAY CARDS FOR THE KIDS, SO WHY SHOULD I CARE
I QUIT BEING A DAUGHTER OF GOD BECAUSE ITS JUST TOO HARD TO BE GOOD!
I QUIT I QUIT I QUIT BEING A SISTER BECAUSE THEY DON'T LISTEN ANYWAY AND ARE JUST HURTING THEMSELVES, I'M TIRED OF SITTING BACK AND WATCHING THEM DESTROY THEIR ETERNAL SELVES........WHY WOULD I PUT SO MUCH EFFORT INTO A RELATIONSHIP IF WE WON'T BE TOGETHER IN HEAVEN?
Why, I'm a quitter.
notice one thing I didn't quit. I didn't quit being a grandma! Big Sigh! I love you Q
'I QUIT. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE. IT IS JUST TOO HARD FOR ME TO DO EVERYTHING THAT EVERYONE ASKS ME TO DO. I HAVE GAINED WAIT, AND I AM JUST FRUSTRATED SO I'M QUITTING.'
"How much have you gained?" asked one member.
'About a pound and a half over weight'.
"Well, we can all come up there and beat the crap out of you, that would help you get to goal!" was her response." LOL!!!
'I can't believe how my heart is racing. Its really hard for me to tell you this.'
Some members had tears in their eyes. "You can't leave us!" "Are you joking?" "This isn't funny!"
I looked at them with all the seriousness I had left and said.............DON'T WE ALL GET THIS WAY! Don't we all just want to give up and Quit!
We have to NIX THE NEGATIVE!
One of the members said I was so good I need to get the Best Actress Award. They truly believed I was walking out!
I feel like doing this to a lot of things in my life. Wait, Truth be told I have wanted to quit everything I have ever done.
I QUIT BEING A MOM. MY KIDS HATE ME ANYWAYS!
I QUIT WORKING AT THE HOSPITAL...I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING NOBODY TRAINED ME AND HEAVEN FOR BIDS I GET A COUPLE PHONE CALLS (from the principal for the 6 year old....AGAIN)
I QUIT GOING TO CHURCH. SO AND SO IS BARKING AT ME AGAIN! (PMS TIME FOR HER)
I QUIT BEING A WIFE, HE DOESN'T SEE TO MY NEEDS WHY SH OULD I GIVE HIM HIS NEEDS
I QUIT BEING A FRIEND, I'M TIRED OF PUTTING 100% AND ONLY RECEIVING 25% BACK
I QUIT DIETIING, I WANT TO EAT SUGAR AND NOT FEEL GUILTY
I QUIT BEING A DAUGHTER BECAUSE DAD IS NICER TO THE DAUGHTER IN LAWS
I QUIT BEING A DAUGHTER IN LAW BECAUSE THEY COULD CARE LESS IF I EXISTED OR NOT. THEY DON'T EVEN BOTHER WITH BIRTHDAY CARDS FOR THE KIDS, SO WHY SHOULD I CARE
I QUIT BEING A DAUGHTER OF GOD BECAUSE ITS JUST TOO HARD TO BE GOOD!
I QUIT I QUIT I QUIT BEING A SISTER BECAUSE THEY DON'T LISTEN ANYWAY AND ARE JUST HURTING THEMSELVES, I'M TIRED OF SITTING BACK AND WATCHING THEM DESTROY THEIR ETERNAL SELVES........WHY WOULD I PUT SO MUCH EFFORT INTO A RELATIONSHIP IF WE WON'T BE TOGETHER IN HEAVEN?
Why, I'm a quitter.
notice one thing I didn't quit. I didn't quit being a grandma! Big Sigh! I love you Q
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Weight Watcher Leader Training
September 16, 2011 will be an adventure ride for me. I will be flying out of the Lincoln airport and venturing to Chicago. I will have 3 days to learn what I need to learn to be able to stand in front of a crowd and educate them on the Weight Watcher Program.
I am a bit nervous. I have wanted to do this for 9 years. A few months after I got on the weight watcher program I had the overwhelming urge to be BLANCHE. Blanche was the leader at the time. I knew she was nearing retirement. I thought she was spunky and full of life and energy. I know that bugged some people, but I always loved how I felt around Blanche. She is a great example to me. After Ron lost his Coleman job and he bought his own Hastings Business I started going to the Hastings meetings. There I met Deb. She was spunky, full of energy too. Life got a little busy and I quit going to the meetings. I gained 20 pounds, or more. I went back to the tuesday meeting but Blanche was retired and there were a couple of new ladies. Pam and Mary. Tuesday night wasn't cutting it for me and my friend Cindy. Cindy suggested we start going to Mary's meeting. What a breath of fresh air.
I came back but struggled to find my weight loss journey successful. That was August of 2010. After seeing Adrienne's wedding pictures I decided it was time to do something for myself again. I was at a stand still. Mary was great but my head wasn't doing very good. November rolled around and a new program came out with weight watchers. It took me about 2 months to get my head and heart wrapped around the new program. YES, You can teach an old dog new tricks. It just may take a little longer.
January the St. James Center closed and the meetings went to Just for Ladies. That was really frustrating. No parking, no place to sit, the ladies were wonderful but I was paying for a monthly pass but wasn't able to enjoy the meetings. Frustration was setting in again. Word got out that Just for Ladies meetings were moving to the Faith United Methodist Church. I was really excited. I was also approached by several of the ladies that worked at weight watchers to see if I was ready to Work for Weight watchers as a receptionist. The guidelines for that was to be 170 pounds. I was just barely getting to Dr. Goal and struggle to stay there with out gains every other week. My Dr. Goal is 176. I told them I would work on it.
I worked and worked. The only thing that worked was the prayers I said to the Lord. I told him my desires. I let him know the guidelines I needed to live by. By the Grace of God I made it to 170. I called Jennifer, the area manager. She interviewed me and found that I would be a great assest to the team. I told her that I would love to be a leader someday. She told me I had 6 months to get down to the Leader guideline for my heighth. 160. REALLY? I haven't seen 160 since I was a sophmore in High school. I continued to fast and pray for the strength to get over my weakness. On a daily basis I could feel the love and support of angels. The beginning of July I was able to call Jennifer and tell her I made it to Leader Goal. I was two months ahead of the 6months that she gave me. I am proud to say that I weigh 158. That is a lot compared to some of the other ladies that surround me. I am grateful. I am healthier today than I have been in years.
I started my weight watcher journey April of 2002. Through Prayer I received the answer that I desired. HOW DO I EAT? Go to weight watchers. I called up Debbie and we found the meeting room and we ventured out of our comfort zone. I lost 68 pounds. My start up weight was 243 pounds. In 2005 I got pregnant with Karrea. January of 2006 I got back into weight watchers and lost 50 pounds. I got to that Dr. Goal weight of 176. 2007 is when I received that goal weight. Ron sustained some back injuries and I had to help him. A voice clearly said to me, this is why you are as big as you are. So you can take care of Ron. I was finally FREE. I paid for about 5 years (remember, you can't go if you are pregnant :D). What a relief. I submitted my story into the SUCCESS contest and won 4 place in the nation, or our region. I am not sure. I got a few gift certificates, some food, a plant, and recognition. It was a real exciting time for me.
2008 rolled around and the stress of working with Ron doing carpet cleaning and not having an eating schedule I slowly gained 20 pounds. So from May to September I could feel the difference. I found myself a couple of meetings to attend. By January of 2009 I lost the 20 pounds. I kept it off for a few months and then the life happened again. From April to November 20 pounds creeped back on. I was too busy to go to meetings. By June of 2010 I was losing control of my eating. By the time I went back to weight watcher August of 2010 I was up to 198 pounds. I was so frustrated with myself. HOW COULD I DO THIS TO MYSELF. I KNOW BETTER! RIGHT?? UGH.
Here I am. Trying to be successful once again. I hit my free lifetime status in March, and started being a receptionist for weight watchers. I miss going to meetings but I love seeing the people and hopefully inspiring them in some shape or form. I am not perfect. If you see me in the grocery store I may have some "bad" chips or cookies in there. "If you bite it you write it" and nothing is off limits. "if you work the program, the program works for you!"
I cannot express the gratitude I have in my heart and soul. 1) for God giving me strength 2) my family being patient with me and fending for themselves when I can't fix another meal 3) the ladies at the Kearney weight watcher meetings that give me advice and strength and teach me the things I need to be successful 4) I am grateful the products that I get to buy to keep me on track. 5) I really appreciate the people that attend the meetings that help lift me up. I wouldn't be able to continue this journey if it wasn't for all the above. I know I'm missing others.
Thank you.
I am a bit nervous. I have wanted to do this for 9 years. A few months after I got on the weight watcher program I had the overwhelming urge to be BLANCHE. Blanche was the leader at the time. I knew she was nearing retirement. I thought she was spunky and full of life and energy. I know that bugged some people, but I always loved how I felt around Blanche. She is a great example to me. After Ron lost his Coleman job and he bought his own Hastings Business I started going to the Hastings meetings. There I met Deb. She was spunky, full of energy too. Life got a little busy and I quit going to the meetings. I gained 20 pounds, or more. I went back to the tuesday meeting but Blanche was retired and there were a couple of new ladies. Pam and Mary. Tuesday night wasn't cutting it for me and my friend Cindy. Cindy suggested we start going to Mary's meeting. What a breath of fresh air.
I came back but struggled to find my weight loss journey successful. That was August of 2010. After seeing Adrienne's wedding pictures I decided it was time to do something for myself again. I was at a stand still. Mary was great but my head wasn't doing very good. November rolled around and a new program came out with weight watchers. It took me about 2 months to get my head and heart wrapped around the new program. YES, You can teach an old dog new tricks. It just may take a little longer.
January the St. James Center closed and the meetings went to Just for Ladies. That was really frustrating. No parking, no place to sit, the ladies were wonderful but I was paying for a monthly pass but wasn't able to enjoy the meetings. Frustration was setting in again. Word got out that Just for Ladies meetings were moving to the Faith United Methodist Church. I was really excited. I was also approached by several of the ladies that worked at weight watchers to see if I was ready to Work for Weight watchers as a receptionist. The guidelines for that was to be 170 pounds. I was just barely getting to Dr. Goal and struggle to stay there with out gains every other week. My Dr. Goal is 176. I told them I would work on it.
I worked and worked. The only thing that worked was the prayers I said to the Lord. I told him my desires. I let him know the guidelines I needed to live by. By the Grace of God I made it to 170. I called Jennifer, the area manager. She interviewed me and found that I would be a great assest to the team. I told her that I would love to be a leader someday. She told me I had 6 months to get down to the Leader guideline for my heighth. 160. REALLY? I haven't seen 160 since I was a sophmore in High school. I continued to fast and pray for the strength to get over my weakness. On a daily basis I could feel the love and support of angels. The beginning of July I was able to call Jennifer and tell her I made it to Leader Goal. I was two months ahead of the 6months that she gave me. I am proud to say that I weigh 158. That is a lot compared to some of the other ladies that surround me. I am grateful. I am healthier today than I have been in years.
I started my weight watcher journey April of 2002. Through Prayer I received the answer that I desired. HOW DO I EAT? Go to weight watchers. I called up Debbie and we found the meeting room and we ventured out of our comfort zone. I lost 68 pounds. My start up weight was 243 pounds. In 2005 I got pregnant with Karrea. January of 2006 I got back into weight watchers and lost 50 pounds. I got to that Dr. Goal weight of 176. 2007 is when I received that goal weight. Ron sustained some back injuries and I had to help him. A voice clearly said to me, this is why you are as big as you are. So you can take care of Ron. I was finally FREE. I paid for about 5 years (remember, you can't go if you are pregnant :D). What a relief. I submitted my story into the SUCCESS contest and won 4 place in the nation, or our region. I am not sure. I got a few gift certificates, some food, a plant, and recognition. It was a real exciting time for me.
2008 rolled around and the stress of working with Ron doing carpet cleaning and not having an eating schedule I slowly gained 20 pounds. So from May to September I could feel the difference. I found myself a couple of meetings to attend. By January of 2009 I lost the 20 pounds. I kept it off for a few months and then the life happened again. From April to November 20 pounds creeped back on. I was too busy to go to meetings. By June of 2010 I was losing control of my eating. By the time I went back to weight watcher August of 2010 I was up to 198 pounds. I was so frustrated with myself. HOW COULD I DO THIS TO MYSELF. I KNOW BETTER! RIGHT?? UGH.
Here I am. Trying to be successful once again. I hit my free lifetime status in March, and started being a receptionist for weight watchers. I miss going to meetings but I love seeing the people and hopefully inspiring them in some shape or form. I am not perfect. If you see me in the grocery store I may have some "bad" chips or cookies in there. "If you bite it you write it" and nothing is off limits. "if you work the program, the program works for you!"
I cannot express the gratitude I have in my heart and soul. 1) for God giving me strength 2) my family being patient with me and fending for themselves when I can't fix another meal 3) the ladies at the Kearney weight watcher meetings that give me advice and strength and teach me the things I need to be successful 4) I am grateful the products that I get to buy to keep me on track. 5) I really appreciate the people that attend the meetings that help lift me up. I wouldn't be able to continue this journey if it wasn't for all the above. I know I'm missing others.
Thank you.
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